Since I started doing the networking business, I prepared myself from everything that will hurt me- so I applied what they thought me like being a Batman (Bato't manhid), which is to not be emotional about any events that will occur from doing the business. I also try not to make excuses or reasons not to do this thing.
I juggled two worlds at the same time- school & business. The bad thing about it was I kinda gave up being a hardworking student just to become a successful networker.
I really enjoyed the business. I mean I did earn money, but the way my upline is treating all my downlines kinda got me ticked off. I was also stuck in a pedestal where my upline badmouths my downlines while they complain about his leadership.
Sometimes, people change for money. I know it changed me too, but I didn't stay on that line for too long. I was failing studies even if I'm earning. There was a point in time where I thought about dropping out from school just to paved way for my business. There was a point in time where I helped my downlines so much but they never tried to help me when I have an invite. There was a point in time where I chose the business over studies... for what? One thousand five hundred pesos per pairing?
It's not even enough for me to drop out of school. Why did I waste precious time just so I could convince people to join & go home so late in a school night than try to study for the tests? I guess I was mesmerized from all the money I could earn here that I forgot the person I was back then. I became arrogant & boastful because of money that I forgot the laid-back, quiet, shy, God-fearing, family & friend-centered person that I was... for that one thousand five hundred pesos.
People defined me as a networker than the person I was before. It's kinda annoying because people tend to look at your mistakes than all the good deeds you have made. I was the figure of lies & cheat but I ignored them. In the end, I guess they were right.
I hauled myself to being the old me, but it was too late. I haven't had the chance to enroll because I didn't get my cheque earlier & the time frame for you to enroll is only for a week. It was like being kicked out from the school where you already grew & where you've met all the friends whom you will be spending time for the rest of your lives. It was like your room was well-lighted again & someone suddenly turned it off. It was too late.
I suffered all the consequences fate has bestowed upon me & I took them all with dignity. I hid my true feelings just so I can focus on a lot of things. I exited my life for a moment & went to Bulacan for two weeks for my community immersion. I passed everything... even cried everything. Days passed & I became better- being the old me & sticking to the people who values me not because I have the ability to convince people to join but because I was me.
To my business family, thank you for teaching me. I really learned a lot of things I can use in the future. I apologize if I'm not handling my business so well.. it is business after all & it's my discretion to do anything about it. I'm still going back but I don't know when. I just need to focus unto the most important things in my life. To my upline Robin Magics (http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/1133), I'm forgiving you from everything you did to me & to my downlines.
I'm going back to what I am before October 8, 2008.
Shaping in & shipping out, Upline Allan :)
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