184th Song- Forged

Forged
Allan Aldrinne Leyva

You’re fading me out, fall me apart
 Gave up in my love yet I succumbed
Cause when you are here
You’ve always turned still
I’m always the one who faced your fears

But I have confessed that I don’t protest
This is just all your test
If I have to die, you’ll soon realize
I’ve been the one who loved you most

(Chorus)
I don’t compare your love from me
But I know that you know my love’s far to reach
& inside your soul, I’ve almost touched you whole
But still you’re the one who writes me off
I couldn’t know if your love from me was forged

& I promise you that in my last breath
It’s you whom I tell brought the best of me
If you don’t recall what you’ve done for me
You gave me strength to grant my change

Yes I have confessed, my love isn’t dead
I’m maybe numb outside my realm
If I have to die, I just couldn’t hide
The fact that you were my light & life
(Repeat Chorus)

Every little bit of my strength & my soul
Are calling you, longing for you
Every little bit of compassion & more
Lingering here, trying to tell you
Love, please love me too
Even though mine was more
You’re the reason I survived
(Repeat Chorus)

Yes I know, it’s hard to believe, I don’t know, try to see
& I almost had it all, but then you have to be cold, pushed me away
I couldn’t know if your love from me was forged
Yes I couldn’t know if your love from me was forged

183rd Song- Find A Way

Find A Way

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

It’s hard to find a word

That can prove my worth

Our love that I have constantly hurt

I always trust myself

Than to trust you then

We’ve been criticizing our faults

But then again

I listened to myself

Even if we fight

We’ll always do what is right

(Chorus)

We’ll find a way to keep the love

Burning in though we’re apart

Looking out between past & beyond

Find a way for you to stay

As forever’s on its way

Hold my heart I saved for you to take

We’ll find a way

You said you sacrificed

I said we’re just the same

Your defense was I don’t do enough

We expect too much

I asked you ‘what’s the rush?’

I let my love be out of touch

& then again, I’m talking to myself

From all the laughs & cries

We should never say goodbye

(Repeat Chorus)

If everything must fall apart

To remain our quiet love

I’d be here with you

‘Till we walk away

We’ll find a way

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

We’ll find a way

182nd Song- Beat Box Of Life

Beat Box Of Life

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Come on, get masochistic

Lease your narcissism

Take your rage all over the place

Gush or rush rampaging

Alter ego’s breaking

Spotlight hits up on me

Dancing in the daylight

Never was out of sight

Need to cal the fire brigade

Can you get a picture

Of a man who’s sober?

But sticks to the original game

(Chorus)

Baby, come on

Dance on the floor

Never resist

The trance that were in

Kill all the lights

Flash in a smile

Slow down the ride

Listen tonight

To the beat box of life

Don’t have to give an effort

Everyone’s endangered

Survival needs appropriate games

Music fall like raindrops

Vibing like a radar

Global satellite on my door

Give me what I deserve

Party is work’s dessert

Heatness like a fever, I searched

Open all your senses

Leave your body restless

It’s the time where I should confess

(Repeat Chorus)

Baby come on

Fill up the bear

Look in my eyes

Feel all the signs

Baby come on

We can become

Two people as one

Love out of fun

(Instrumental)

Baby come on

Baby come on

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

181st Song- My Goal Is On Fire

My Goal Is On Fire

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

There’s pain but I’m happy

No hope but I’m waiting

There’s you who truly loves me

Though we can’t be together

I’m wrong but I’m learning

To do, to do the right thing

Tonight, thought I’m broken

Dreams, love, will always remain

(Chorus)

I’m living my life

I’m falling in love

I’m aiming high

I’m learning to soar

Cause this is my life

Here I’m in charge

Thought I’d be blind

At least I’m alright

My goal is on fire

There’s rain & I’m celebrating

This test that’s getting easy

I just (I just) look in your eyes

Hold your hand, together we fly

(Repeat Chorus)

There’s pain but I’m happy

No hope but I’m waiting

There’s you who truly loves me

Though we can’t be together

(Repeat Chorus 3x)

Duty Gluttony

So on Wednesday I had my first ever hospital duty for this last semester. We were assigned in the O.R. Area in Pasig City General Hospital from six o'clock in the morning upto ten o'clock in the evening. Talk about 16 hours of torture, & I just got well from my illness.

Anyways, it's okay that I get to spend two duties in one day, since I get to rest on the following day (which is today). At least I could have a chance to get one or two major & minor cases. & during my duty, I scrubbed in on a major & three minor surgeries. They took a major toll on me.


First, I agreed to scrub in on a Mesh Herniorrhaphy that turned out to be an Incision & Drainage procedure. Honestly, I kinda panicked at first since my last actual scrub on a surgery was like five months ago. It was a smooth procedure though & the surgeons are entertaining. After that we took our breakfast & rested for a while on the Recovery Room.

I scrubbed in on an Emergency Pelvic Laparoscopy after doing some patient monitoring. Since I don't have that many major cases, I agreed to sacrifice my energy standing there for hours until the final suture was completed. I felt so burned out after the procedure, but I stayed alert for our mini-lecture on Perioperative Nursing.

Then another procedure was up & our clinical instructor asked me if I could do another scrubbing again. I looked at my other dutymates & everyone did the same. I was so exhausted already, but for my PRC's sake, I still agreed to scrub in the third time. It was a minor procedure of wound exploration.

So my fuel is empty already & I seriously can't take it anymore. I really wanna go home & take a rest, but just before our clinical instructor felt it's time for us to go home, another procedure turned up & she asked me again if I could scrub in for the last time! Talk about bypassing every OR nurses there!

This time, I was really the actual scrub nurse beside the doctor there! Some of my dutymates went home already because it was past ten o'clock already. I practically memorized (not really) all the instruments, & there are moments when I already know what instrument the surgeon would use next. I was scrubbed out after the final counting was completed & I thanked the medical team there for the experience! I went home around twelve o'clock & went straight to bed!


Sometimes the world needs people, whether nurses or just simple people, who are versatile when it comes to doing what is right for you & for everyone. I think our simple sacrifices just like scrubbing in four times in a row can also make a big difference in other people's lives.

Anywho, I'm gonna be typing some new compositions & will post it here soon so stay tuned for more episodes of Allan's Anatomy! God bless & hope you're having a good week like I am. Thank you for all the visits & comments guys! I love you! (By the way, I practically look a lot like that guy above, Dr. McDreamy. Although I must say, I look better lol).

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

Febrile

Hey guys! I just thought of doing another post for this week. I feel so sick, literally & undeniably sick. The downside is not just being febrile itself, but the way I couldn't sleep or rest to alleviate my over-fatigued body & headache.

It started yesterday in school during our meeting for the seminar. I felt so weak & my hand tremors are so severe I couldn't focus on the agenda. I'm catching my breath it's as if I just ran a hundred miles. I couldn't convince myself that I lack hydration or the appetite cause I just finished eating an hour ago during our break. I was complaining & my classmate doesn't believed me. She thought it was just a scape goat so I could cut class. I still went to my remaining classes amidst the lack of energy. I went home dead-tired & slept all night.

I thought I'd get better after making up some sleep. Turned out I was wrong.

I felt even worse. My body isn't ready to face the world today but my mind reminded me of school. I couldn't take the day-off, it's like I'm being selfish on my ever-curious brain as well. I wasn't getting tough of my body too- after a shower I ate breakfast & took an anti-pyretic. My self-motivation gave me the assurance of my physical improvement. My left scapular pain worsened even more that I'm actually biting my lips while writing. The pain also radiated to my upper arm & to my neck with pain that can still be ignored. My tremors are going insane it's as if I'm doing it on purpose now. I'm so thirsty & my stomach's growling but I'm not feeling like eating nor drinking at all. My body was screaming for rest that it overthrew my driving force to stay at school & finish my classes.

My body wasn't the only one who feels sad. The sky was sympathizing with me. I didn't carry an umbrella or a raincoat with me but I still ventured out through the rain, hoping to find the nearest tricycle station. I ran a few more meters & got in &, while catching up my breath, told the driver to take me home.

I'm not cruel nor selfish especially to my body's needs. If it wants something, then I have to do something to satisfy it. Unfortunately, I couldn't even shut my eyes despite the will to get better & feel better.


It's not raining anymore, but the pain persisted. This is how love & sacrifice does to you. If you love what you're doing or you love someone, you would do impossible things to reach for a goal. It's like a form of sacrifice, with or without the confidence of what might happen tomorrow. Even when things go wrong, true love & devotion still remain unchanged, not even for a bit. It weighs more than anything your body wants to do.


Hopefully I could get better in no time. I actually must rest now. More new songs heading to LJ's way, everyone! I ask for your prayers, readers, that I might be able to return in my normal condition now. I wish you good luck on the rest of the week & of this year! May God bless us!

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

Firsts & Lasts

I feel like I've been missing in action for weeks now. No worries, I guess it's just all part of my blog brain barrier (lol to those who gets it) which hasn't been functioning since I moved out from Friendster blogs to Blogger, & talk about having no blog uniques now. Sheesh! But I still get that LJ is all about being written, not being read.

Anyways, if my hospital duty wasn't rescheduled next week, I'm pretty sure I'm going to transform myself into one of the Cullens again. On Monday, it's actually my first official school day in my last official semester being a nursing student. It's an awesome start of the week since I get to be with my old classmates again & I get to have a cool professor for my 105, but it sucks when you have so many minor subjects to attend to, & you end up so tired.


Don't get me wrong, I love Asian Civilization ever since we studied about it when I was in third year high school. Rizal & STS are cool subjects as well. However, I don't really have the strength to maintain my focus for a whole day. I have a good professor at Asian Civilization (he's also my professor at Rizal) but it's kind of a little bit boring as well.

I enjoyed my STS professor now, but the thing is, it's my second time to take that subject again. I took that subject in my former school & it's the only subject that I failed because I didn't get the chance to take its final examination. It just sucks because I actually have a good Preliminary & Midterm grade there, & my group & I there have a great research project, but my previous professor there didn't return my calls when I was fixing it back then. Thank goodness I get to talk with my new  professor now & she understood my concerns regarding the subject. 'Ugh!' to my last set of minor subjects.

Anyways, I'm just happy everything is still intact amidst the tribulation I'm dealing with. I don't usually speak out some of my problems here but I thank God for every little things He's giving me, since it will all end to something big. Love, dreams & happiness is still my destination, & I think I'm getting there. By the way, God will always be my first & last. Hope you're having a good week as well.

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

180th Song- Never Learn To Love Me

Never Learn To Love Me

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I try to push you away

& try forgetting your name

You know it’s better to leave me this way

At least the pain won’t stay

I don’t know what you have done

For me to switch on my heart

& it’s simple, all I need is your love

Was it so hard for you to give?

(Chorus)

I always think before I decide

But then again, my heart always fights

There’s no excuse from walking away

You’ll never learn to love me ‘nyway

I’m giving up, I’m giving up

To try to take your breathe away

& now we can’t last a day

I’m always scared to say

I think if you just drop me here

It’s like I’m facing all my fears

(Repeat Chorus)

Maybe I’m me

Hoping to what can’t be real

& maybe you know me

Tend to threaten to leave

(Repeat Chorus 3x)

(To try to take, to try to take your breath away) 

(To try to take, to try to take your breath away)

Are you here to stay?

179th Song- 3D Love

3D Love

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

& I keep on waiting, waiting for you to appear

Ask me your questions to where this love has been

The only response that I could make

It started when I just woke up one day

& when you look at me, I feel so free

(Chorus)

You always see what is good in me

Am I like you who so perfect in my fantasy?

I can feel

A change of heart

Whenever I wear my glasses

In this film

I appreciate more when you’re beside me

So don’t you go

It’s like livin’, I’m livin’, I’m living in a 3D love

Then I bought the tickets, it’s your turn to entertain me

I’m loving this movie, but you were the reason I’m here

Can’t even focus to what I’m watching

Just want to hold your hand than nothing

But then I had to make my move so soon

(Repeat Chorus)

I don’t even know what the name of the movie

I’m surprised when you talk about the way you feel

No, there’s no way, for you to fall for me

Look in my eyes, tell me it’s real

Let me just stop, & let our story begin

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

178th Song- Love Like Christmas

I did try to write a Christmas song or love song once a year ago... I actually wonder where I put it. Anyways, I made this for two days & I'm really glad it's not about being a grinch on Christmas day. That reminds me, I have to save money for gifts now! Merry Christmas guys!

Love Like Christmas

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I didn’t get much presents this year

Though I don’t expect for material things

All I ever need was someone beside

To hold my hand & keep me warm inside

I always wonder what Christmas was like

To be with you, it feels everything’s alright

& when I saw you on a cold night of December

It’s like I’m sure, a love is born

(Chorus)

I though I’ve wasted my life

Until I fell in love on Christmas time

I never needed a list

You were the gift that I’ve been waiting for

A special love like Christmas Day

I thought that I am on the naughty side again

I lose control but then I lift my hands

All of a sudden you’re there to make me strong

The only gift that lasts forever now

(Repeat Chorus)

(Instrumental)

‘Till you come around me

It’s like I just noticed

You were the only one I can’t unwrap

Now I put up the decors

Write you a letter

Thank you for all the future memories

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

I bid the big world goodbye

I thought that if I have to go away

My mem’ries would stay

But then I see all the light

Shining above me

While the snowflakes fall

A special love like Christmas Day

177th Song- You're Making Me Happy

You’re Making Me Happy

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Would you help me write a song?

A song that everyone would surely love (will surely love)

My inspiration wherever I go

Is the one who couldn’t see my flaws (Couldn’t see my flaws)

But then again I wonder

If you fell the same emotions

Thought I guess I could try to

Find a way for you to know

(Chorus)

You seldom talk & I don’t know why

But you would always fill up my mind

With colors I couldn’t really explain

But I’m contented to the way that it goes

Day by day I just fall apart when I fall in love

I couldn’t ask what you’re doing to me

If I did you’d stop making me happy

& it’s as if you’re my reliever from pain

I know I’m crazy but you would always make me sane

& when you look at me, I’m all serene

I guess it’s just the way you’ve managed to control what I fear

& yes I’ve always pondered

If ever you feel empowered

What should I keep telling you

For you to start hanging around

(Repeat Chorus)

I confess that for awhile

I couldn’t really speak out my mind

& everytime I fall apart

You’re always there to pick me up

& there are time I just couldn’t understand what love means

I’ll think about your future with me, & actually it makes me happy

(Instrumental)

(Repeat Chorus)

It’s simple but it makes me happy

Even when you don’t talk, I’ll always find a meaning to what you’re saying

Please don’t stop from making me so happy

You’re making me happy

176th Song- I Hate You But I Love You More

I Hate You But I Love You More

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I know you’re not too good

When it comes to figuring out

How much I’m loving you

& then they say I am just wasting time

I still hold on, believe that I am right

& all you have to do

Is try so hard to fall for me too

But then again my fears don’t hide the time

That I’ll pretend everything’s alright

(Chorus)

& I can’t take it anymore

Waiting for that call

They say that I am strong

Enough to hold on

But I’m just hanging on

& now you’re gone

I’d still wait for you knocking on the door

I hate you but I love you more

For you to see my heart was what I did

In time, I still believe you’ll return to me

Deny the lies I’m having from myself

In truth, I’m stuck to hold what isn’t real

(Repeat Chorus)

Please just come back home

Sorry for the conclusions I have thought

But I can’t undo my love for you

& it’s hard for me to let you go

(Repeat Chorus)

I hate you but I love you more

175th Song- Heart Said Hello

Heart Said Hello

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Hello

It’s been awhile since we last talked

I know the places where you got to go

Ain’t it easy just for you to pick up the phone?

You got me crazy, can you hear the anger of my tone?

I know that you are sensitive in nature

I guess I’m tired to pretend you’re a stranger

The truth is that you couldn’t make you better

But then again, you’re making me lesser

(Chorus)

Hello!

Tell me if you’ll open your heart’s door

Hello!

What d’you think my efforts are there for?

Don’t try to hide it cause you act so obvious

There’s a scream leasing when you talk mature

I don’t forget you saying so far so good

Hello! Hello! I heard your heart said hello

Maybe you’re having troubles in deciding where to go

You’re ambivalent & I know you’re just putting on a show

I’m not some psycho who predicts your future

I’m not a stalker who re-tweets on your twitter

I’m not the one who always making the first move

But I ain’t backin’ up if you drop a memo

(Repeat Chorus)

Maybe I’m using my alter ego

But then again, I made you dance on the dance floor

Until the clock hits destination heart

I heard your heart said hello

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Hello!

Tell me if you’ll open your heart’s door

Hello!

What d’you think my efforts are there for?

Hello!

I know this love is more than alcohol

Hello!

Trust me, when you wake up, you’re not alone

174th Song- I'm Perfect & Imperfect (12th Album Title)

I wrote this song after some epiphanies & realizations in a blog post sometime last month. Enjoy!

I’m Perfect & Imperfect

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

God invented light

To wash the dark goodbye

At first I thought I was right

But then I see my life

I know I’m not that perfect

But I know there’s no defects

But when I flash the light to my life

I found it’s all a lie

My heart is so cold

My age lines unfold

My face turned so old

& everyone knows

I looked back at the world

Where I’ve been before

I now realized

I’m imperfect after all

(Chorus)

& I believe I’ve lived a life

Things don’t go back all the time

Soon we just have to accept

I’m perfect by being imperfect

At first when I got out

In the end I’ll doubt

I compare myself to them

I thought I’m better then

But someone told me not

I realized I’m worst

But then again I wouldn’t change

What I cannot change

I’m priceless, I know

I don’t have to haul

This is my case

All my mistakes

But now I just thank

My God for the rain

I’m better to be

Imperfect after all

(Repeat Chorus)

Tell myself at least there’s Him

Who can see my everything

& He said that in His eyes

That I have been perfect all the time

So it’s alright

If I can find

What’s wrong in me

At least I’m me

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Tell yourself that you are

Made by God to live a part

Where you’ll be somebody’s love

& this one will tell you

You will always look

You will always look perfect to me

173rd Song- Perfect Goodbye

Perfect Goodbye

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Today, I just realized

This thing is over, & I couldn’t ask why

& yet, I can’t find a perfect goodbye

I’ve thought that there would be life

I’d build cause I’ve seen all the signs

But then, I have to be broken again

(Chorus)

But what if I found a way to say

Goodbye to you?

Will you have some second thoughts for me to go?

& if I try to go away

& write you

I’m doing better here

I don’t know

I just need to find a perfect goodbye

& fate, must’ve been cruel

I know it’s over, but still it’s obscure

To say goodbye is the only cure

I couldn’t understand you

We love each other but for you it’s a ruse

& yet, I still want to be used

(Repeat Chorus)

(Instrumental)

Today I asked myself

What if I found a perfect goodbye

Would you even consider it?

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

172nd Song- How I Ignored You Then

How I Ignored You Then

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Here I go again

Why’d I have to force you by what my love has given?

First I see a spark

But in the end, it always fades away

& I’ve thought about our future

The life we’ll have together

The memory has to vanish as you have found another

(Chorus)

Maybe I have learned my lesson

On how to make conclusions

It’s only me who’ve hoped for even more

& maybe I must not remember

The thing that will forever

Break me apart cause I could not forget

How I ignored you then

In this quiet place

The only thing I want to feel was your big embrace

When I open my eyes

I see that you were only protecting yourself

The thing I can’t forget is

Your heart wasn’t the fastest

But it’s only me who I can blame cause it’s only me who’ve fallen

(Repeat Chorus)

The thing that kills, kills me the most

Is that I’m still expecting you

I couldn’t feel bad

It wouldn’t make you sad

But then again it would just go away

Are you happy now? Are you happy now?

Couldn’t close my eyes

Could you be a little sensitive?

Tell me how you really feel

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Let me just turn back time again

& baby, I’ll bring the love today

You ignored me in the end

171st Song- A Heart Than Can

A Heart That Can

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

To love by you is such a strong desire

Then again, I’d never hoped for it

The line has ended here, I’m not really surprised

Over the years, I’ve made a fight for it

Sometimes I talk too much, but I listened to your heart

Pardon me with my own silly art

At time I think again, wish that everything’s the same

Cause I couldn’t understand myself for now

(Chorus)

A heart that can understand love

A gesture so simple, it appreciates

Maybe in time, my love wouldn’t fade

A heart that can never be afraid

To love & be loved, a heart that would not start go away

You just spoke to me

With a beautiful angry voice

You asked me if I’m crazy ‘nough to fall

Simple words easily touch my soul & there ain’t no separation to go

I know I lack the standards

fgTo be the person you would make

The one whom you’d entrust your faith

But then I’ll try to see

The difference of you & me

& I just pray that we would always have a heart

(Repeat Chorus)

I know that you know

Our destiny would be so difficult

I’ll never let you go

There ain’t no fears behind these tears at all

Would you mark the presence of you as I go & have

(Repeat Chorus)

A heart that can love than hate

A heart that have a patience to wait

The heart that molds belief to fate

A love that would never fade away

To love & be loved

I wish it never goes away

Song Week

Since school doesn't officially starts yet (for me), & I'm dedicated to finish two hundred songs & five hundred blog posts by the end of the year, & that I'm not really doing any blog posts lately, plus that I'm filled up with new songs to share (breathes lol)... I wanna start this middle of the week with a little focus on my compositions. I call this week... my very own Song Week!


I know I'm getting rusty when it comes to sharing some of my life here, plus I think I'm so far behind my 'Life or Something Like It' (now called as Avenir Parfait) stories especially my Meet the Newest Beatles Encore series & some Clothes Over Bros Fashion shows. I think you have to give me some time for those stories. Anywho!


So I'll let you guys know whenever I decide to update my life here. Since I'm still in the verge of ambivalence when it comes to making up my mind, I guess I have to post some of my songs here. I also got to learn how to play a keyboard or a piano to finally sing my songs infront of a camera & upload it on youtube or something... I still do not know. Help me out here?

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

170th Song- Like The Rain & More

I actually wrote this song on September 30 during the typhoon Ondoy/Ketsana. I figured that this is one of God's way for us to be reunited with everyone again.

Like The Rain & More

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Grabbed my keys & start the car

Going back to a life that’s far

Every goal I did achieve

Something’s lack entirely

It looks as if my life’s so great

But still I feel this emptiness

Who was there in my life’s events?

The picture’s vague & I can’t remember

Then I feel your touch

(Chorus)

Rain keeps falling down on me

Cause you were telling me

Seek you, then I shall see

The love you’ve made before I’m born

To guide me to be strong

Your love’s like the rain & more

So I opened the door & let

The warmth inside me to be there

While the storm is pulling me

Like a star, I’m far too reach

 I remembered my past mistakes

I was scared you might find hate

But you said you don’t recall

My transgressions in my past

(Repeat Chorus)

Every storm, I appreciate

It’s how you’re telling me have faith

Thought I’m walking all alone

Looked at my feet, it’s yours I’ve seen

You carried me back home

(Repeat Chorus)

Rain keeps falling down on me

Keeps falling down on me

Keeps falling down on me

169th Song- Blind Faith

I wrote this song in September & dedicated this for all the children in C.H.I.L.D. Nothing will stop you from reaching your dreams & ambitions! :)

Blind Faith

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

 

You are the only evidence

The only one who’ll set me free

The one who keeps my mind serene

You are my only remedy

& even if the world’s against me

You still protect even when you’re weak

If it all comes down to here

Maybe in time, they’ll try to think

You are love

You are safety

You are needs

You are real

You are hope

You are trust

You are what

I came upon

& it’s you

Yes it’s you

(Chorus)

It’s called blind faith

& it’ll starts here

Feel the pattern of a good life

& if you stand up

It will guide you

If all you see is dark

Don’t be afraid to walk

It’s called blind faith

It doesn’t matter if I cry

The thing that matters is I tried

Even if I longed for tears

I am thankful I could feel

& I’m not walking on my own

Cause I got the love; I am strong

& I have treasured all my goals

Maybe someday I could haul

You are love

You are safety

You are needs

You are real

You are value

You are unity

You are what

I see in you

& it’s you

Yes it’s you

(Repeat Chorus)

Let the world know

You can let it go

Take a picture

& it’s all for you

It’s how we wander

We discover

Stand amidst the weather

It’s more than what we can defy

(Instrumental)

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

All we need is something

To become somebody

& we got blind faith

Velvet Ruby Paint

Hey guys!I feel like I haven't talked about myself here for awhile. Well, I share about the simple lessons I've been inculcating this week & I try hard to make it interesting, but I never really made such a huge effort in talking about what I've been doing for the last couple of weeks. Don't you think so?

Anyways, school is getting near as I'm bumming myself infront of the computer. I'm actually loving this break so much- I get to be productive when it comes to renovating (or simply repainting & arranging the furniture) our small but beautiful abode. I also get to spend more quality time with my own pack, my aunt, some of my closest friends,  my God, & myself.

I just love how we made this house completely 'livable' again lol. It's just that we had our house repainted like twelve years ago (I think it was the summer of '96) & it was white then. The walls of our house was one of the witnesses of how we grew up & they actually deserve a new coat of fresh paint.

Last week, we bought some rollers, paintbrushes & a nice bucket of velvet ruby paint & white paint for the ceiling. Honestly, we just planned to paint the walls of our bedroom so we could appreciate it for a change, plus I need to clean it because I feel that the place where I live is also where my allergies are triggered so much.

After hours of painting, we decided to paint the living room & the dining room as well. I really am glad the house was small; at least we had an exercise, I spent time bonding with my mom & little brother & we finished it in only two days! That's why I don't need to go outside too much to appreciate everything the world has to offer.

I'm having a hard time in searching for my songs. As of this moment, I only had like one hundred forty of my songs out of one hundred eighty plus. I'm afraid I permanently lost ten of my songs but these past few weeks I've been writing what I think are good songs. I also get to write my first every Christmas love song. I did attempt to write some a few years back but it wasn't that any good. All in all, I'm still thankful I get to find some of my songs & I still get to write more.

Yesterday I went to school to fix & organize some of my papers concerning about my enrollment & clearance. It's so troublesome having no mom to help you around (she's at my aunt's that time) but at least I get to spend some time with my friends like Nikki & Henry who were shocked with my new hairstyle lol. We watched a little bit of a practice of some high school pageant & then we had a little snack. I practically missed school because of them.

Anyways, enough of the updates. I think I'm talking too much again. lol. God bless & have a good day everyone! Take care! :)

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

Maturity 101

I always hear mature conversations. I associate it with two or more adults talking, with someone who does what is right, & with people talking about life experiences & we gain some wisdom about it. Yes, I've always been associating maturity from how someone talks or does, & that's the reason why I get to feel ignorant or simply troubled that I couldn't make myself grow up a bit in terms of cognition & emotions.
  

But today, when I woke up in a cold sunny morning, I realized that maturity isn't just something that can be measured by how someone moves in a society. It's not just measured by how someone who is always right & does what is right. Maturity is more like something you learn or earn from doing something, regardless of how good or bad it was or how people see it.

Here are some couple of myths that I thought were mature before or what I've seen & heard from other people (I call it the maturity myths):

Maturity Myth 1: When I was a kid, I used to think that mature people are the ones who hang out & have coffee in Starbucks, who wear black & look professional & who think they're better than everyone else. (Though I love coffee!)

Maturity Myth 2: Mature people know how to cope well from anxiety & depression; they know how to solve all their problems in life & you don't get to see them panic over something.

Maturity Myth 3: I thought people are mature when they're being so quiet. It's just that they don't have to speak or share their thoughts to anyone else & that they always have the right answer.

Maturity Myth 4: Maturity line, the thing where you'll be a mature young adult, really exist!

Maturity Myth 5: Mature people don't have to play games, whether physical or online, for they are more focused on their work that has benefits that are more than what they get from playing. & yes, they don't just hang in Starbucks, they also get to go to different night clubs, dancing their time away during a Friday or Saturday night.

Maturity Myth 6: Pardon me on my silly judgmental days during my childhood, but I thought mature people are skinny. I think it's because people who have weight more than what they should have tend to be jolly people... & mature skinny people don't laugh at all. lol
  

Okay, I think I'm gonna stop with the Maturity Myth talks right here before I get way overboard. But seriously, we should all stop from getting judgmental. Nicotine, coping strategies, black clothes, overvalue of one's self, age, work than play, alcohol, serenity, clubbing, & being skinny don't make people mature in an instant. Don't worry, it's just something that I thought over to myself- research are based on my experiences only. You're actually free to share one or two of your MM's.

At the end of the day, maturity is something you learn, value & shape up. It's not really an automatic thing that you'll get, it's more self-made than hereditary. I just realized that you get to become mature in a series of life experiences or realizations.

I also believed that love is a mature thing to do; loving someone makes you more sensitive to other people's feelings. It also makes you more appreciative, & you get to prioritize their feelings of happiness & satisfaction & problems over yours. That's Sweet November right there! lol

I'm gonna take some photos on our newly painted & reorganized abode. This is where I get to appreciate a small home- you don't get to spend over a week to furnish it (& that usually makes people lazy & stop from finishing it), you don't get to hire some workers to do the job, you don't get to overspend, you get to bond with your little brother & mother, & you're sure to finish the job in two days! lol. I'm gonna post the before & more-on-after pictures later, alrighty? Gimme a shoutout! Good morning & God bless!

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

168th Song- Purple Eyes

Purple Eyes

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Guess I’m too old

To appreciate purple

What you’re doing now

I don’t understand

You’re holding my heart

Control it like a puppet

Where you are far away

I couldn’t help but fray

(Chorus)

I’m lost in your purple eyes

I know it’s gonna take some time

Adjust to a life far from you

I know you love me too

But it’s so hard

To close my eyes without you

It’s not that I’m alone

You’re the only one I own

& when you’re gone

I feel so insecure

Now I do not care

If people want to stare

(Repeat Chorus)

I’m lost in your purple eyes

I’m blue when I’m not beside you

& everything is so obscure

Without you, I’m not sure

I’m lost in your purple eyes

(Instrumental)

Guess I’m too old

To appreciate purple

But when you’re coming here

A rainbow life appears

(Repeat Chorus 2x)