185th Song- Blue You

Blue You

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Yellow lights of June

Walk thru cautious rules

Thought I’ve faced anew

Moved out of my tune

(Instrumental)

Then you came to save

Save me from my cage

Though I’m still surprised

Worthy is my fight

(Chorus)

Stopped me from falling apart

Convinced me & I fell in love

Over & over again

I lived like the tidal waves

You put me in a calmest sea

Never will I feign my love

Into the blue you

Into the blue you

Haze of purple clouds

Surrounded me with doubts

Synchronizing time

This is not my life

(Repeat Chorus)

When you go away

I am here to stay

‘Till you come back to me

I’ll give what you would need

(Repeat Chorus 3x)

Per-FOUR-Mance

Hello everyone! I really have a bad habit of not controlling my anger when you know you're doing something right & people are trying to tell you the opposite. It was supposedly a good Friday morning last week & someone just had to ruin it.

If I have to evaluate my performance this second semester, I have to say I have done well when it comes to contributing my part to our class' seminar & it's a thumbs up in my part when it comes to sitting infront of class in Course Audit as well.

I don't mind criticisms as well, in fact I like how people understand my actions- it makes me aware of my performance in terms of my academic excellence. What I don't like is criticizing me behind my back & sharing false criticisms about me to the people whom I don't even know.


When I think about it, I actually am serious about the seminar from day one since I heard about it. I did not complain (maybe a little) about being in charge of the documentation team, I actually acknowledge it since I like doing projects like that. I did not complain when I was chosen as one of the masters of the ceremony since it's a good experience to enhance my vocabulary skills. I didn't even say anything when conflicts arise, not that I don't care or I'm not part of it, but because I'm always neutral & respect every ideas that are being shared.

It's like I'm going beyond my part as well since I volunteered to make the certificate which isn't part of my job at all. It's like I'm receiving two times the work load even if I still have three minor subjects that I need to prioritize as well.

I don't complain when I'm being criticized that I'm having a bad performance into something I really don't exert effort from. It's okay since I don't do it good enough like they do, but false criticizing me even behind my back was way overboard.

I couldn't really stop from complaining, resulting to my lack of effort in studying for NCM prelim exam because of my mood that afternoon. This is the bad side of silently doing more effort than everyone else- I don't really need nor even care when my performance is being complimented, but complaining about it when everyone knows that I'm doing more than a good job is something I couldn't really just trifled with.

One lesson I learned from all these is that sometimes you have to make yourself be known by your actions even when God knows what you've really done. If respect or reputation is being affected from those false criticisms, I'm holding my peace cause it's actually stupid for me to fight over something that it wasn't true & those people that I love knows what I'm really doing. BUT if my grade is being affected from them, then I really have the right to speak up.

It's what you call E-FOUR-T, because it's four times the effort in my performance. God bless us & those people who have to learn the art of criticizing... or more in the art of appreciating as well. Have a happy start of the week!

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

A Different December

Hey everyone! I've been sensing some climate changes over the past few days. It has been a sweet warm November indeed, & now we're heading to a 'Christmas Celebration' here in Lefty's Journal! Amidst being absent here for weeks which you should forgive by the way lol.

Anyways... updates! I really can't comprehend why I've been having troubles with blog visits; I used to have visits like twenty people per day or more everyday, but now it's like my blog is drifting away. I don't know but the more I try to make my blog to be known, the more it is being ignored. Maybe this is just the transitional phase that my blog & I are going through. I don't know, but I'm sure a lot busy to know the answer.

Speaking of being busy, I've been having a lot of events lined up for tomorrow, the next week & the next year. There's preliminary exams tomorrow although I'm not quite sure if I could take the NCM exam since I don't have an exam permit yet & I'm still waiting for the money to arrive. I'm having troubles with money today, since I'm trying to save up to pay my debt from a friend while day dreaming about buying clothes from Zara, eating DQ almost everyday... obviously trying to compensate my school life from being materialistic this season.

At least I'm looking forward to my Christmas break next week! I'm really thirsting for a break since I got fluxing sleep deprived for the past few weeks because of my duties, which I'm thankful also cause I get to finally fill up my cases in no time. Next year I also get to finish being one of the master of the ceremonies in our seminar & I'm also looking forward to that. Graduation is also coming near, that's why I need to fix everything to prevent any tribulation that is school-related.

So I'm gonna be posting more songs up this week & will be celebrating the 500th post! Woot! It is indeed a Christmas Celebration! Don't stop 'till you get enough... God bless & take care everyone!

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne :D

184th Song- Heart Said Hello

Heart Said Hello

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Hello

It’s been awhile since we last talked

I know the places where you got to go

Ain’t it easy just for you to pick up the phone?

You got me crazy, can you hear the anger of my tone?

I know that you are sensitive in nature

I guess I’m tired to pretend you’re a stranger

The truth is that you couldn’t make you better

But then again, you’re making me lesser

(Chorus)

Hello! Tell me if you’ll open your heart’s door

Hello! What d’you think my efforts are there for?

Don’t try to hide it cause you act so obvious

There’s a scream leasing when you talk mature

I don’t forget you saying so far so good

Hello! Hello! I heard your heart said hello

Maybe you’re having troubles in deciding where to go

You’re ambivalent & I know you’re just putting on a show

I’m not some psycho who predicts your future

I’m not a stalker who re-tweets on your twitter

I’m not the one who always making the first move

But I ain’t backin’ up if you drop a memo

(Repeat Chorus)

Maybe I’m using my alter ego

But then again, I made you dance on the dance floor

Until the clock hits destination heart

I heard your heart said hello

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Hello! Tell me if you’ll open your heart’s door

Hello! What d’you think my efforts are there for?

Hello! I know this love is more than alcohol

Hello! Trust me, when you wake up, you’re not alone

183rd Song- Find A Way

Find A Way

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

It’s hard to find a word

That can prove my worth

Our love that I have constantly hurt

I always trust myself

Than to trust you then

We’ve been criticizing our faults

But then again

I listened to myself

Even if we fight

We’ll always do what is right

(Chorus)

We’ll find a way to keep the love

Burning in though we’re apart

Looking out between past & beyond

Find a way for you to stay

As forever’s on its way

Hold my heart I saved for you to take

We’ll find a way

You said you sacrificed

I said we’re just the same

Your defense was I don’t do enough

We expect too much

I asked you ‘what’s the rush?’

I let my love be out of touch

& then again, I’m talking to myself

From all the laughs & cries

We should never say goodbye

(Repeat Chorus)

If everything must fall apart

To remain our quiet love

I’d be here with you

‘Till we walk away

We’ll find a way

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

We’ll find a way