La Union

So after I posted my last blog post about our trip & stuff, we actually headed to my friend Reese's house to pick her up for our La Union trip. We arrived at Partas bus station at twelve o'clock in the morning. To tell you the truth (& I'm not ranting out their services & all), their service really suck. I'm the type of person who doesn't judge anything yet until I hear the whole story, but staying in line for almost an hour & waiting for the bus for three hours really does hit the spot.

We slept at the bus like crazy before we arrived in La Union at around nine o'clock in the morning. We were picked up by Kuya Bagets, Reese's driver/bodyguard & went to her house. There we also met Reese's half-brothers Enzo, Eman, Richard & Poti with her half-sister Tina. Seeing them so close really got me into thinking about my siblings.

Sea Park Beach Resort

We went off to Sea Park to have lunch. The food there is awesome & the beach is so calming. I planned to get a tan there but there we decided to go to Thunderbird Resort to go swimming there instead.

Thunderbird Resort is heaven! It's like we were in Greece. We swam there for hours until I got the skin I desired... well not really. It's so much fun bonding with Reese's family & I'm really happy I went with them.

Thunderbird Resort is Heaven!

We went to church after a quick stop to Reese's house for a mass & to celebrate the Vice Mayor's birthday. It wasn't really a mass when I think about it, it's more like a thank-you concert for the vice mayor- there were choirs, pianists & an opera singer. After the mass we had our dinner beside the church & then we went off to Fiesta.

It really is my first time to go to a casino so I'm kinda surprised how many people there are spending big ones just to get richer. I can't really imagine me spending money for that but I was really fascinated by the slot machines & all that. We had snacks in Vegas, the name of the restaurant inside Fiesta & watched Rico J. Puno, Rey Valera & other big-hit singers as they performed on the stage. I got a cold after that so someone suggested to go home earlier tonight.
 
When we arrived home we played a little Word Factory before we hit the haystack. It really is a fun Saturday for me. Tomorrow we'll be heading to the beach again & will go home later that night. God bless & take care everyone!
  

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

Cab Drivers & La Union

Today was not that productive but I really enjoyed it. Apart from spending the day with my best friends, I also had super fun with my crazy family.
 
You know, I really appreciate even the smallest things in this world. Some cab drivers are really, really nice. On the way home the cab driver talked about the *eherm ongoing sex video scandal issues in the Philippines. We exchanged opinions & ideas about the topic. When I was on the way to my friend's house, the driver talked about his previous passengers & all that. It's just so nice having conversations with complete strangers.

Okay, so we're heading to La Union this evening for a three-day vacation. I hope Mr. Sun won't fade away & to finally have that tan body I'm longing for so long. I had a trim today & it's really nice... for me though. I'll be traveling with my laptop so the only thing I need there is an internet connection. If not, then my posts will be postponed. Anyways, have a great weekend you guys! Drop a comment or two about the things you're doing today cause I really wanna hear your stories.
 
God bless & take care everyone!
 

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

Bye Business?

I'm not really the type of person who gives big words that can either entertain or hurt anyone, so what I'm gonna say is just what my heart is telling me to say.

Since I started doing the networking business, I prepared myself from everything that will hurt me- so I applied what they thought me like being a Batman (Bato't manhid), which is to not be emotional about any events that will occur from doing the business. I also try not to make excuses or reasons not to do this thing.

I juggled two worlds at the same time- school & business. The bad thing about it was I kinda gave up being a hardworking student just to become a successful networker.

I really enjoyed the business. I mean I did earn money, but the way my upline is treating all my downlines kinda got me ticked off. I was also stuck in a pedestal where my upline badmouths my downlines while they complain about his leadership.

Sometimes, people change for money. I know it changed me too, but I didn't stay on that line for too long. I was failing studies even if I'm earning. There was a point in time where I thought about dropping out from school just to paved way for my business. There was a point in time where I helped my downlines so much but they never tried to help me when I have an invite. There was a point in time where I chose the business over studies... for what? One thousand five hundred pesos per pairing?

It's not even enough for me to drop out of school. Why did I waste precious time just so I could convince people to join & go home so late in a school night than try to study for the tests? I guess I was mesmerized from all the money I could earn here that I forgot the person I was back then. I became arrogant & boastful because of money that I forgot the laid-back, quiet, shy, God-fearing, family & friend-centered person that I was... for that one thousand five hundred pesos.

People defined me as a networker than the person I was before. It's kinda annoying because people tend to look at your mistakes than all the good deeds you have made. I was the figure of lies & cheat but I ignored them. In the end, I guess they were right.

I hauled myself to being the old me, but it was too late. I haven't had the chance to enroll because I didn't get my cheque earlier & the time frame for you to enroll is only for a week. It was like being kicked out from the school where you already grew & where you've met all the friends whom you will be spending time for the rest of your lives. It was like your room was well-lighted again & someone suddenly turned it off. It was too late.

I suffered all the consequences fate has bestowed upon me & I took them all with dignity. I hid my true feelings just so I can focus on a lot of things. I exited my life for a moment & went to Bulacan for two weeks for my community immersion. I passed everything... even cried everything. Days passed & I became better- being the old me & sticking to the people who values me not because I have the ability to convince people to join but because I was me.
 
To my business family, thank you for teaching me. I really learned a lot of things I can use in the future. I apologize if I'm not handling my business so well.. it is business after all & it's my discretion to do anything about it. I'm still going back but I don't know when. I just need to focus unto the most important things in my life. To my upline Robin Magics (http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/1133), I'm forgiving you from everything you did to me & to my downlines.
 
I'm going back to what I am before October 8, 2008.

Shaping in & shipping out, Upline Allan :)

143rd Song- Love Line

Love Line

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

  

Running down the memory lane

Seeing stars & black holed-days

Took a glanced in I love you’s

Found that there’s this longest line with you

Confused, & bruised

Why’s this love line time-consumed?

I thought this on & off relationship was

Just a fling, then again, I know it’s real to me

(Chorus)

Love line says it all

It’s just three days

When you & I decided just to love for fame

But in the process

I just walk away but now

An aching heart is telling me

You & I broke up stupidly

You-street’s crowded with a pot full of games

I know we’re kinda childish, playing The London Game

Even if I’m still deranged

You rearranged

I never thought that I fell

In a matter of days

Dumbfounded, surrounded

With a pack full of cupids, I could use some sense?

I thought we weren’t serious when you look at me

I didn’t’ even know if you see or feel?

(Repeat Chorus)

  

Just to break the ice, I think I’ve ‘membered

When you & I just went for it & kiss each other

I didn’t even feel

There’s a connection between

A permanent love

You always see on films

(Instrumental)

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Props for me & you, I think I see

A future we can share in the following years

Health & Everything Else

It's appalling to see a family member going through a lot of pain. The sad thing about it was seeing him suffering while you can't do anything to stop it but pray for him to be better.

Awhile ago, I saw Brittani Louise Taylor's youtube video Love (Click this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nibX745EZck to view it) & it's all about how she found out about his dad's medical condition & how she appreciates everything about him.

When I watched the video, I can't help but cry cause I remembered my grandfather who died from Diabetes Mellitus. I remembered how my grandmother told me that he can't help but jump when he heard I was born. I remembered how he always buy me Lego after our Sunday mass. I remembered how he thought me the word of God, how I should respect everyone in the church, how I shouldn't steal & how I should give my offering to God.

In July 2006, I received a call from my grandmother about his condition. She was kinda worried & definitely crying. I can't stand up & can't even stop my tears from falling down. My grandfather, whom I thought was the Superman & one of Jesus Christ's apostles when I was a little kid, passed away around four in the afternoon. We rushed to the funeral site & there I was, talking with him while he's sleeping, wishing he heard me.

Like Brittani said, sometimes God throws rocks at you so you could be reminded how lucky you are to have a family beside you. I miss my grandpa. I wrote him a song after his burial, it's Please Say Goodbye.

It's not like Brittani's dad will never get through his condition. Actually, the survival rate from it is pretty fair. To Brittani's family & all the rest of the people who is going through the same thing, just put your faith to God who can make impossible things possible. :)
  

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

142nd Song- I Won't Give Up

I Won’t Give Up

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

If ignoring me is the answer to my prayers

Then I know that it is difficult to take you away

If I told you that I love you

& you keep all yours doors closed

Stopping me would trigger me to continue

If I didn’t have a chance

To maybe prove that I am yours

Then listen to this song

I say would you open up your heart & try to see

  

(Chorus)

I won’t give up

I won’t give in

Cause everything you do makes me complete

Even if you don’t

Accept me as your own

Denial comes & goes

I just know that

I won’t give you up

  

I can ruin your career & perfect life

But I know it’ll make you better

Make you laugh & make you smile

I don’t know what you are feeling

But I know inside of you

Unpredictable you are, can’t you see?

  

If I didn’t have the guts

To maybe prove that I have you

If you listen to this song

I say would you hear my thoughts about the way I see you

(Repeat Chorus)

  

(Instrumental)

Late at night I hear your voice

Miles away it’s you I know

You’re the one who filled my heart

By doing nothing

(Repeat Chorus 3x)

Kids Say The Darndest Things

I actually have twenty days more to enjoy the summer vacation just before torture starts again... I mean school.

I do love going to school & all, with all those studying & constantly being on top of your game (or daydreaming your way out of passing), but sometimes I wish there will only be school days whenever I'm feeling. I know, I'm really lazy sometimes, but is it my fault to beat yourself up with hammer everyday?

Well, I guess I really have to focus than whine about it. I mean, I only have one more year to finish college & I'm up to chase my dreams. The only thing I need to do now is focus on whichever the school bus wheel takes me. No business first, no social life to focus on- it's all about bonding with books & staying away from tempting activities.

Awhile ago when I was heading home from my friend's house, I saw one of my neighborhood/childhood friends whom I didn't see much often anymore. We said hello to each other & went off with our lives. Another was when I was going back to my house from a grocery store- I saw another childhood friend but we never greeted nor glanced at each other... maturity issues, I guess...
 
Now I'm having an epiphany- where's these all coming from? Actually, I just miss my childhood days where the world is just my personal playground. Friendship when I was a kid is measured by how much toys you got, how much candies you have for you to share, how much kids you've fought with & how many wins you have. Unfortunately, I'm not really the most popular toddler in our school & in our subdivision. I guess I'm a little bit sensitive & emotional... 
 
It seems like everything that revolves around you were afternoon anime's like Ghostfighter, building waterfalls from sand, dancing infront of the TV to the tune of Wanna Be & Barbie Girl (Yeah, that's right! It actually got famous when I first encountered MTV), skipping lunch or dinner just so you could play outside or play indoors with your Lego & Hotwheels, & getting excited going to the mall after a Sunday mass because your grandfather will be buying more toys.

Back then, we were fortificated from reality. It was so fun being just you that you seem to miss it now more than ever. Today, we're all about stalking your idol (I think that's just me), being so messed up in studies, worrying about almost everything & dieting all the way even if you have a great body. I'd spare you all the details from young adulthood. Today, we set our paths & goals while we hone ourselves to being the best at everything, but when we're kids, we're just paving the exit to go outside & play whatever games kids play up until today. I miss being a kid again. :)

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

141st Song- In This Game

In This Game

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

You got the nerve to tell me to stop

Whatever’s working for you

Don’t try to compare all my love

From the other ones who act like a fool

Didn’t I explain all the things I’ve gained?

Whenever I’m with you

Do tell my mistakes

Like I have lost my faith

Cause you just come & go

Didn’t I follow you to a shady alleyway?

You’re playing with the whom you said

Was your ex instead

I see you crawling up at him

I see you dancing over him

Now tell me if it’s my mistake

That you’re with someone else

  

(Chorus)

Stop the tears, I ain’t falling for it

Just explain, don’t you throw me a fit

You’re in the place

Where you would tell me straight to my face

If you think I’d prevailed

I just lost in this game

I guess it’s time to say

That I’m really not that into you

You’re just in my way

& okay, I just wished that you have loved me too

  

Is isn’t enough to call my friends & tell?

Like I’m the bad person here

Don’t you think I’d bail

& say that you were safe

I just correct all your mistakes

I would never tell a thing if you change in everything

I see that you were having fun

Tell me if you’re done

I see you standing in front of him

I see you moving towards him

Don’t tell that it’s my mistake

I’d never played your games

(Repeat Chorus)

  

I hate myself to follow you

Obey your rules & love you

Is that why I prefer if you just walk away?

If you can’t tear a single page

Then why not throw the whole damn thing

It’s better if I’m moving on

It’s your fault, I can’t move on

Sorry if I didn’t want to see you again

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Time or Death

Long ago there was a SARS outbreak all over the world. Today, there's the H1N1 virus that's currently making its way through the Philippines.
 
I watched the news awhile ago & we were so shocked that the yatch my friend have ridden last week got sinked because of overloading. Many died from this accident, especially the three-year old & two-year old victims.

Everything's in chaos today. Out there there's still wars that are happening, discrimination & racism that are still present, & diseases that take so many lives. The only good thing from all of these is that we try to live on the positive side of life, even when everyone else is suffering. Let's just give our concerns to God & He will do the rest.

But the only thing that is bothering me from all of these is dying. Actually, I'm really not afraid of leaving the world; when I was in highschool I don't worry about dying, maybe because I still haven't set my goals yet.

Today, it just scares me too much how dying seems so random- you don't know when, where & how you'd die. It's scary because you'll be leaving everything you love behind.

Kinda think of it, it's not really about dying at all. I think it's about leaving the world in such a short time. I hate to die without actually obtaining all my dreams- be a singer, have an album & a movie with David Archuleta, be an architect, a cardio-thoracic surgeon etc. I guess the true enemy on this is time, not dying itself. I'm afraid to die without having to acheive all the things I want to have.

My deepest condolences to all the families of the victims who died from the Puerto Galera accident. May they all rest in peace.

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan

Sunday Updates 3! :)

View Sunday Updates 1 & 2: http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/142& http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/746

Burn every past memories. Throw away the mistakes. Put out the flame. Condone the sin, not the sinner. Cut the string of history. Grow as a new seed.

I woke up at seven o'clock in the morning to accompany my little sister for her swimming trainig today. I don't know her competition schedule but at least I spent some time with her. Again, I really miss my swimming days when I was in highschool.

We went home around twelve o'clock with my aunt Jane for lunch. I tried this new filipino dish which is 'Laing' & it was delicious & so good for your health.

I went to my friend Eric's condo afterwards to hang out then straight to Makati Square to buy some DVDs.

I received a message from someone that used to be so dear in my heart. She sent me this message- "sana makaalala ka..wag tuluyang makalimot..." It's just so sad that people befriend you for the wrong reasons.
  
I really want to start fresh now. All I got to do is close my eyes & find the right light. I'm still chasing the longest pavement big time & I'm still happy about it.

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

Starting Anew

Life is where you have tough decisions to be made. Life is where you escape everything at first & all those things will eventually fill up before you come back. Life is all but a ten-decade existence in this planet. Life is a form from fate. Life is where you put your best efforts to make it more valuable. Life is what brings wars, causes poverty, takes calamities but gives hope.

No matter how much effort I put on, it always results to a disaster. That's why it's time to say goodbye to the old me. They say if you can't tear a single page then throw the whole damn thing. I would miss everything but it's just the way everything should go from now on.

I guess I'm wiser now- not to trust anybody that easy. I was a fool to think my life would be better if I gave a part of my life from this. I guess I'm more appreciative now- I don't want to look on the bad side of the things anymore, if there is, I would always end my day being happy. I guess I'm real now- I don't have to pretend to be someone else anymore. I think I need to be someone whom I wanted to be all along. I guess I'm more selfish now- I want to focus on my life helping myself than to anybody else (except charities- it always makes you feel good :D). I think I'm more fixed now- I was broken for a long, long time & the people around me never gave up on me when I was in the lowest part of my life.

I'm still young & I do not need to pretend that I know everything. I still want to get into trouble. I still want to play wrestling with my little sister. I still want to experience everything from being inspired to being worried. I still want to be a singer, or an architect, or a cardio-thoracic surgeon. I still want to earn money. I still want to be an expert in dancing. I still want to have concerts. I still want to have music albums. I still want to be the person with a whole lot of dreams in his head. I still want to chase pavements.

Life is where you have tough decision to be made- I know that we will choose the right path that is laid out for us.

Life is where you escape everything at first & all those things will eventually fill up before you come back- I know that we will be braver in facing our problems.

Life is all but a ten-decade existence in this planet- & in that ten-decade human lifespan, you have the power to change the world.

Life is a form from fate- It is a form from FAITH too.
 
Life is where you put your best efforts to make it more valuable- & even with the smallest things, if you put your best efforts to it, would made you more valuable than you ever think.
  
Life is what brings wars, causes poverty, takes calamities but gives hope- It is also what brings peace, causes awareness, brings blessings & gives hope.

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

140th Song- Pretend

Pretend

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

There’s a little bit of explanation

Of why I throw a little indignation 

You telling me I shouldn’t go

In the end I had to know

You were gone before I approach you

You said you’ll wait for me

Until I come over

It’s over

The other

Told me that I lost to you

Is this just little game for you?

I fell & changed for good

& now you’re moving too

(Chorus)

Didn’t you see the best of me?

Telling you I love you

& you return the favor by loving some another

I should’ve known that it wasn’t real

In the end I still believe

The only thing you’re good at

Is pretend that you don’t know that

Now I kinda have some recollection

About the way you’re giving me attention

Told me that you feel this way

How I brighten up your day

But where I’m now is all your endeavors

To make my life a living disaster

Deceive me, neglect me

What you did to me is hurting me

Is this what you have planned to do?

I thought you’re too good for me

& now you left me here

(Repeat Chorus)

  

What about all the memories you’ve made?

Is it real to you as it is for me?

What about all the things you’ve gained?

I’m hurt, it’s over now

I can’t believe you lead me here

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

  

Is pretend you don’t know what’s going on

Pretend that you can’t see me

Pretend that you have loved me

Now I pretend I didn’t know that

Youtube Sensations!

It's a great Friday morning today albeit the lack of sleep (because of some cockroach in my bedroom accident)- I woke up at four o'clock in the morning & found myself running with my little sister after that. I've also spent a nice breakfast with my family & tell you what, simple gatherings like this makes you feel more appreciative & thankful to everything you have.

I just finished my 141st song & it's really different & good, after my song Pretend, which is coincidentally David Cook's song (or performance) that is available today in itunes. (Oh yeah) It's actually a charity performance where all the proceeds will go to find the cure! So click the link here if you want to buy + help- http://bit.ly/DC4ABCC.

Anyway, I really hope my David Archuleta would visit this blog. It's about time he reads my blog posts about him to know that I'm a crazy stalker fan lol. I actually tweeted him back, let's wait for his reply there (so excited!)

If you get kinda bored & want some humor stuff, I'd be gladly to introduce you to Shane Dawson (http://www.youtube.com/user/ShaneDawsonTV), Chris Thompson (I recommend you to hear the Twitter Song at http://www.youtube.com/user/supricky06), Brittani Louise Taylor (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W01_MiFJoRU), Christine Gambito (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_G0bwmcqHCM), & David Archuleta with his Youtube channel (http://www.youtube.com/user/theofficialarchuleta).

Guys, you really need to watch their videos cause it'll really make you feel so happy! Well, maybe that's just me, but seriously! :)

My Top Five Song Today!

TOP 1- Note To God by Charice Pempengco. Click this link right here to watch her amazing performance: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0twzwGOdhZw.

Top 2- To Be With You by David Archuleta

Top 3- The Fear by Lily Allen

Top 4- You Can by David Archuleta

Top 5- Light On by David Cook

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

139th Song- Don't You Run

Don’t You Run

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I can’t seem to forget you

Now I can’t even try

When I look up in the blue

I feel that everything’s alright

Your smile & voice are catching me

I try to run but now I see

I’m giving in & bringing out

All the best of my love

(Chorus)

Don’t you run away from me

Can’t you see I’m on my knees?

Hear my plea & feel the beat

I’m falling into deep

Stay & say you’ll never go

Leave the keys into your door

Future’s bleak but let it be

As long as you don’t run away from me

(Don’t you run away from me 2x)

Know that I’m not used to this

My little real fantasy

Can’t even get a descent sleep

Can’t even think of other things

You’re miles away but I just know

Sooner you’ll go back for more

If I can’t seem to catch you

Then I’ll wait for your love

(Repeat Chorus)

Run away with me

Can’t you see I’m on my knees?

Hear my plea & feel the beat

I’m falling into deep

(Repeat Chorus)

If you think you’d be alone

Think again, I’m here for you

Future’s bleak but let it be

As long as you don’t run away from me (2x)

Business Bashers!

There's no any other way how to express my aversion now other than writing it off in my blog. People can be so annoying sometimes.

Whenever I'm furious, I always get these weird spasms all over my body, it was like I'm having a seizure. My blood pressure are going up & I get tachycardia (abnormally fast heart rate) & tachypnea (abnormally fast breathing) real fast (not like it's new to everyone).

It's not easy for me to get angry. Sometimes it takes a hell lot of reason just to trigger my anger. These are some of the things that really gets me furious. However, just a simple curse would really sets me on fire. Wait... I have to get some air first.

I understand when people get angry- it's either they misunderstand a situation or that I've done something wrong. But people have to get that I don't severely make things so bad that people would get furious. I took away all my pride just to correct some mistakes, but letting me receive all the hurtful things is a different thing.

Anyway, I don't want to ruin a perfect day, so I would stay away from anything that reminds me of that person! I just finished my 140th song & I'll be posting it together with my 139th. See you later!

Shaping in, shipping out, Kris Allan :)

138th Song- Love Me Too

Love Me Too

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I’m waiting for

The best of me to capture me

So I could get your attention

& now I’ve felt

The touching of your hand to me

Through the years I’ve dreamt

Now it’s happening

In the midst of disguise

I just looked in your eyes

Everything is so much better

Though it seems I don’t care

In my heart I can’t bear

I’m yours now & forever

Just stay still

Hold my hand

Say that you would love me too

Want you to see

Your hands are holding onto me

Now I know it’s not just silly fling

I promise you

That everything will be so right

If I could win your fight

  

To the problems I get

With you I don’t fret

Happiness is what I get

  

On the brink of despair

I just want you to be there

You are my life & savior

Now stay still

Kiss my lips

Tell me you feel the same way too

  

& if you go away with me

I promise you

That my love is so true

Just say that you would love me too

  

& if you fly away with me

There’s not a day

I won’t forget

About the day you have said that you will love me too

Love me too

Body Clock

It's too early for me to wake up! Imagining hitting the haystack at one o'clock in the morning (after my family & I attempted to finish the movie The Curious Case of Benjamin Franklin & finished another song) & waking up at 5:30 AM. I'm not sleeping anymore, I'm power napping.

Anyway, how did my body started to feel sleepy during mornings & so energize during the evening?

Well I've been known for sleeping late for like a long, long time now. I think it started when I was in second year highschool, when all the projects & assignment are piling up already. However, it's not really that severe unlike today. I guess my sleeping pattern got all tied up when I was scheduled 2PM-10PM for my hospital duties last year. But it's fun staying at hospitals though.

I'll post my new song later & the rest of the stuff that's currently revolving around my mind. I need to get some breakfast first & hopefully some exercise (Dancing to the song Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship kinda doesn't count lol). I think I need to update my MTNB stories too. If some David Archuleta would finally have the time to read it! (Peace DJ).

I heard from dialidol.com that Kris won American Idol. They have never been wrong. Supposedly Adam wins by 1% so it's close. Sorry Adam Fans...

My Top Five Songs Today:

TOP 1- You Can by David Archuleta. Click this link right here to hear it: http://www.imeem.com/myuniquestyle/music/p-MI_QWu/david-archuleta-you-can/

Top 2- Birthday by Leighton Meester

Top 3- Silly Boy by Rihanna Feat. Lady Gaga

Top 4- Zero Gravity by David Archuleta

Top 5- Broken Strings by James Morrison Feat. Nelly Furtado (I was gonna type Colbie Caillat lol)

  

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

137th Song- Mesmerized & Hypnotized (8th Album Title)

Mesmerized & Hypnotized

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Are you tired of the same old man?

Falling in love & then receive a mail today

About a little fling you thought was real

It’s not your fault, but then again your choice got reek

If you find someone better

I don’t know, maybe I am the one for you

Hence I’m following my hunch & my heart

Giving you the love you need

(Chorus)

You got me mesmerized

Hypnotized in your eyes tonight

So now’s your turn

To find that I’m the one for you

Will you just realize?

Are you getting tired of the same old man?

Won’t you think about spending time with this man?

Tell me now are you for real?

I closed my door & two doors open now

One’s about a dream I have

The other one’s from you & now I think about getting you

If you run even faster

Just think of me, then all the darkness would come to an end

Yes I’m following my hunch & my heart

I guess I kinda think that I’ve a shot in your heart

(Repeat Chorus)

Let’s say that you could find everyone you love in me

Would you rather be in pain or would you go out with me?

(Repeat Chorus 3x)

Are you getting tired of the same old man?

Once you follow me, then it’s up to you to see

Mesmerized & hypnotized in your eyes

havock_pone@yahoo.com? Twitter, Plurk, American Idol & My Top Five Songs Today

Okay judgmental people, I can explain the reason behind my email address.

Tell me I'm stupid but I made this email when I was like twelve years old, so I apologize for the weird plus wrong email address. I wish I could change it but I can't. Wish I could replace it but I had that email for seven years & changing it would be deleting all those web memories for the last seven years.

What I'm doing now

You might be surprised (or not?) but I already have a Twitter & Plurk account. Yeah, I'm totally riding with the waves. So if you want to follow me on Twitter, just type ArchuLeyva or aldrinne_leyva@yahoo.com in the search box on the right side portion of the webpage. You could just click here: http://twitter.com/ArchuLeyva to follow me. If you want to be one of my plurks (I actually don't have a plurk buddy yet), just type ArchuLeyva or havock_pone@yahoo.com (Yep! that controversial email address) on the search box found beside your Plurk page or you could just visit my page right here: http://plurk.com/ArchuLeyva/invite

What I'm watching now

Get ready guys because this would be judgement day for American Idol top two finalists Kris Allen & Adam Lambert. I actually am rooting for Danny Gokey (I was first mesmerized by his Hero performance) but America decided it was time for him to go home (Crap!). Anyway the last update I heard in A.I. was when Adam scored round two after Kris won the first. Who will win? I'm about to find out. David Archuleta is there!

What I'm listening now

This is my first top five songs of the day so don't be so surprised when you see the name Archuleta there *lol. I just bought a copy of my own but preferred to download the songs for my imeem account.

TOP 1- To Be With You by David Archuleta
Click this link to listen to it: http://www.imeem.com/myuniquestyle/music/kl5TZzeI/david-archuleta-to-be-with-you/

Top 2- Zero Gravity by David Archuleta

Top 3- Good Girls Go Bad by Cobra Starship Feat. Leighton Meester

Top 4- Birthday by Leighton Meester

Top 5- The Climb by Miley Cyrus

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan ;)

Confessions of a Fan with Archuleta Addiction Syndrome

Since the first time I saw David Archuleta auditioning in American Idol upto having his first self-titled album, I was already mesmerized by his voice. Now, I still have the goosebumps whenever I hear or see my ultimate idol.

I know you're getting bored about me constantly talking about this eighteen year old singer/ compositor. I just can't get enough of this guy; call me a stalker but people always have someone to look up to, & I guess I chose my twin (I wish).

A syndrome is a group of symptoms that together are characteristics of a specific disorder, disease or the like. The predisposing factor of Archuleta Addiction Syndrome or AAS is David A. himself. The mild symptoms are:

1. Constantly watching David A.'s videos from interviews to TV guestings, concerts, blogs, Vlogs, & music videos.

2. Constantly listening to all his songs from American Idol upto his song tracks from his self-titled album.

3. Constantly talking about him, like word vomit, even when it's not relevant to the topic being discussed.

4. Dropping a bunch of comments so that he could read it & somehow get to know you like you know him.

5. Standing up for him from people who bash him in conferences, etc.

6. Somehow tries to mimic his smile, laugh & voice.

7. Always getting excited when one hears about David Archuleta going to one's hometown. Plus c constantly thinks about him everyday.

Archuleta Addiction Syndrome

8. Buying & downloading all his songs & sings along & memorizes all the lyrics.

9. Constantly stalking David A.'s MySpace & Youtube (Hmm... I wonder if he has a Twitter account)

10. Always getting jealous to the other fans who spent time with David A.
 
The severe symptoms are as follows:

1. Buying all his records whenever one sees it.

2. Stalking David Archuleta himself.

3. Constantly following him in every show from every parts of the world.

4. Stealing David A.'s personal stuffs or the things he touches & makes a ritual out of it.

5. Cutting all his pictures, posters & freebies & makes a ritual out of it.

6. Having David Archuleta's face printed on one's pillow or having a David Archuleta life-sized doll so one could pretend his with him 24/7. Plus thinks of him every second in every minute in every hour in every day of his life.

Okay, so what does David thinks of me now? It's either a loser or a crazy stalking fan (lol). Fortunately, I only have the mild symptoms.

Anyway, I had nice day today. Apart from having the AAS, I had a wonderful time spending it with my family today. We watched Vacancy & it was hilarious seeing my mom & my little sister scared. It's 1AM & I need some shut-eyes. God bless & take care everyone. I'll also post some daily & weekly top songs that I'm currently listening to, & I promise it's not all about David James Archuleta (It kinda is actually).

Shaping in, shipping out, ArchuLeyva :)

Zero Gravity

Although it's certain that our future's been laid out for us, you still want to peek to the other side of that wall so you could confirm that the future isn't bleak.

After I watched the concert, the thought about how things will turn out for me really gave me curiosity about my future. I know I'm still young to plan about it, but I just want to have a career that I really want to have.

Days ago I started to blabbed about how David Archuleta & I were like twins, having the same destiny. Well, that might be the career I want to have- singing all my compositions infront of thousands of people & making a legacy in this world. Forget about the fame & the money, I just really want to share something that really defines who I am. Unfortunately, it's really unimaginable to be someone who you know will never be you. I really want to keep my hopes high up but reality really bites.

But if things really turn out what you want it to be, it would really feel like zero gravity.

Shaping in, shipping out, A

Suddenly I See

It's four o'clock in the morning & I really had no intentions to hit the haystack. Maybe I'm not that sleepy, or I'm being an insomniac again.

This week couldn't have gotten any better. Even though I got stuck in our English enhancement (which is by the way very good), spending time with my newly found friends plus watching my idol's concert seems like a good way to end this week.

Awhile ago I had an epiphany- school's over! Actually it's over for at least a month, but it's cool to immerse yourself from school before you get busy again being a 4th year student. Woohoo! I've also felt that my life is getting back to normal again (if you could say my life is normal).

I almost (or completely) lost a friend today. What she said to me was deeper than the cuts & wounds I've ever received in my whole life. But I guess it's just an automatic reaction to what I've done, so I just let her rub the salt in my wound.

I've also thought about a lot of stuff that I'm going to encounter in the future. I know it's too early for me to plan ahead or just wander, but it's kinda scary not knowing how you'll turned out in the future. I just know that I want to be a singer & a composer like *eherm, David Archuleta. I really want him to share his destiny to me. We really are twins. ;)

My aversion to someone whom I really trusted before grew even bigger this time. It's not because he didn't help me along the way from my business to our friendship, but he broke his promise to give me a lending hand to everything. I'm not being dependent at all, I'm just saying he should've been a better friend rather than an upline.

Anyway, I just want to thank all the readers out there who gave my blog a chance upto today. I really appreciate the loyalty & the good comments I've received over the past few years since I started LJ. A shout out to my idol David Archuleta for 'touching my hand' last night during his concert. God bless & take care everyone. Have a serene Sunday.

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan

David Ar-Cook-Leyva

The one who touched my hand... :)

I would never ever forget this red-letter day! There was the two Davids having fun on the stage & me being a usual crazy fan.

I was really starstrucked finally seeing my two idols, especially when David Cook put up a big ol' smile in front of the 40,000 audience. It was really cute how David Archuleta danced to his song Zero Gravity. His voice really swept me away. For that moment, it was like the two of us there.

Because of that, I'm really in the mood to write more songs for my two Davids. Take care on your flight today David A. & Big Bro David C. I have to rest now for a birthday celebration tomorrow. God bless & have a happy Sunday everyone! :)
 

Shaping in, shipping out, Ar-Cook-Leyva :)

Archuleta Mania!

You could say I'm one of the craziest die hard fans when it comes to this 18 year old boy whom I got so addicted to ever since he auditioned from American Idol to having his own self-titled album. The best thing of it all was we're both the same- we write songs & sing together! We're both Tenors who also knows how to play the piano (okay, I'm really not that kinda good in musical instruments but I try) & we almost have the same attitude & weirdness. So what did I find in him for this guy to pass my standards & be my Lifetime idol? Just the fact that I'm this guy's twin brother.

Anyway, I'm really excited to finally meet him in person tomorrow in the concert grounds. I feel like we'll be friends soon & we'll hang out during his stay here in the Philippines but I'm not getting my hopes up since it will devastate me if I'm going to expect it alot. I'd stay nonchalant about it though.

This post composes the blog posts that is all about my idol David James Archuleta. If you guys want to check it out, just click on the link below this. God bless & take care everyone. Have an Archuleta-smile! :)

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/46

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/89

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/92

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/93

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/99

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/106

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/125

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/474

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/509

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/528

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/553

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/670

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/713

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/702

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/731

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/775

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/834

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/852

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/903

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/990

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/1085

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/1152

http://allan-leyva.blog.friendster.com/archives/1171

Shaping in, shipping out, ArchuLeyva :)

English Enhancement

I'm serious when I told you that I spent the day sleeping. It was supposed to be a good topic in our English enhancement, but my brain is telling me to take my time with my dreams... & it did, for almost six hours of our class today.

I really didn't mean to sleep all day, especially that I'm quite learning something from our enhancement. The thing is, if you really wanted to wake up, you will eventually, but I felt so tired that I need to take the rest of the day off. It isn't my intention (well, actually it is) to ignore what our lecturer is trying to tell us, maybe I'm just a little wee bit off the weather today.

Anyways, if you want to subscribe to my blog to get updates & everything, just post your name on Mark My Mouth section of Lefty's Journal or comment this post in Allanned! I still need some more rest. Until here, God bless & take care everyone!

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan :)

Normality

Okay, basically I'm doing something different today- I'm trying to be a school nerd again.

Although I failed to stay focus on our lecturer's lesson in our English enhancement because of the weird sleeping schedule that I have & the fact that I was building castles in the air, at least I wasn't trying to be a bad egg. Instead I was really serious about the worksheets that our lecturer assigned for us to complete without assistance or help whatsoever from anyone. I paddled my own canoe at last.

I guess I deserve the peace. Not so long ago I was in a catastrophe which I couldn't imagine getting out of it. Every little bit of trifles turned into one big tribulation & I admit there are still some of it left that I ignore now, but at least I finally got out of there. It's hard because I gave up almost everything to get out, but at least I started my life back to normal again.

It's healthy for me to keep silent too- I don't know but I just really like seclusion once in awhile. I faced the music & it's time for me to get my life into shape again.

Anyway still have a lot of worksheets to finish. I'm really getting a hang of answering multiple choice-questions. God bless & take care.

Shaping in, shipping out, Archuleyva!

136th Song- Way My Heart is Telling Me to Love

A song which requires a choir group & a lot of guts to sing the song... :P
  

Way My Heart is Telling Me to Love

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Do you even count the days you’re sad & low?

Are you sure you’re happy & it’s not a show?

You never tell me anything about your deepest sorrows

Then now you’re expecting a different kind of flow

(Chorus)

Of love

It’s not a made-up story

You never have to pretend or say that you’re sorry

(A different kind of flow) Of love

It’s not a normal summer fling

It’s just the way my heart is telling me to love

You were always giving me curiosity I can’t read

I never comprehend about your pleas, I can’t keep

It up, it’s not the same old thing

If you’re comparing ‘bout the love before

I got wiser now

(A different kind of flow)

(Repeat Chorus)

My heart is telling me to give in to my feelings

Though it’s hard to understand your world

It’s killing me now

Down on the melody

It’s kind of insane

To give up my fame

Just to give you

For me to give you

My love

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

& now our contact’s finished

Our marriage didn’t last

At least I knew you better

(I know myself better)

If you ever want to try

The remaining part of life

In devoting all your heart to me

Then I would still believe

Second Chance

Though I see myself as a weak person, experiencing every hell of a situation from the last couple of months gives me the right to say that I'm strong.

Studying in my former school was like a ticking bomb; it's like fate doesn't want me there. No matter how much holes I've put up with, the leaks just keep being constant, throwing me right out of my scene. The minute I heard I couldn't get in for summer classes in GCIC from what happened, my world kind of broke down into pieces. I left it like that for a couple of days, depression won over me.

I intend to give up & quit after that. I had the business to cover me up albeit the problem I had with an upline, I do put my blame in him. There are people in your life who didn't experience what you did but aren't willing for me to give up, like a phoenix I stood up & gave my last stand & I ended up really feeling better.

I was secluded in my own world, exposed to reality & back again in a different world. I guess I'm lucky to have that second chance again. I'm lucky to straigten out my path again for a reason.

Last night we kinda went back in time, like a decade ago. I really appreciate how teen movies were like when I was like nine years old... ot ever younger actually. Those movies, like Can't Hardly Wait or Not Another Teen Movie, were like the reason why we have Mean Girls & She's The Man today.

Anyways, I'm trying to give my second chance a rather good start. Happy start of the week & God bless. Take care people. ;)
 

Shaping in, shipping out, Allan

Happy Mother's Day!

She was the first woman I've ever kissed; the only woman I know who really do loves me & will care for me throughout the years; the only one I know who would never gave me up for other people; the only woman who'd stick with me for a lifetime. She's my mom.

I remember how she recently picked me up from the hell I've been through & she never gave up on me. With her condescending tone of voice, she motivated me to finish something that I've started. I remember how she called the one who cursed & threatened me & fixed it all up. I remember how she brought me two Figaro puddings (my favorite) when I was sick in bed. I remember how we laughed together from our conversation yesterday evening. I remember how she recently became happy albeit the problems she's been through for us.

Now I just want to thank my mother for everything she's ever done for us. She might get over the line sometimes, but what do you expect? She's my mom? She knows me better that I am & she knows what's good for me. I might get in trouble once in awhile (okay, a lot), but she'd be able to fix my life just like that.

I don't know if you think I'm not appreciative in what you're doing for us, you just can't see how happy we are to be your kids. On behalf of my siblings, we want to say thank you & we love you so much. :)

Happy mothers day to my 'lolamama' from Holland, Tita Leng from Virginia, Mommy, Tita Arlene & Tita Mylene. To the rest of the mother out there, happy mother's day to all of you. :)

Nonexistent Me

Today, after I received an embarrassing score of 72% in my final exam, I went straight home & browsed some couple of webpages on the internet like blogniinday.com, & my own Lefty's Journal.
 
After several webpage browsing I ended up at Perez Hilton's site where he blogs all kinds of Hollywood stuffs. It suddenly hit to me- why did I end up being a student nurse who just failed in his exam & got a 2.75 for his NCM 103 lecture grade than being someone else?

It's kinda weird (& stupid) asking questions like that to yourself, but seriously though, why would I be someone which isn't really who I wanted to be? Do other people who get stuck at something so contenting think about this question? Is there really a plan already laid for us?

There are questions which you just have to ignore because it's difficult or if you try to search for an answer, you might get in trouble for certain reasons. However, the moment I first thought about it was the start of my growing curiosity.

Although certain that I'm happy & contented to my life right now, I'm just wondering if it's better if we end up to a someone who we really wanted to be. I personally think I'm better off as a singer/compositor/actor/model/cardio-thoracic surgeon/architect; with just a better voice, good looks, a brilliant mind, & tons of money, I might be able to pull it off... who am I kidding?

Well, it's still better if you keep on dreaming. You'll never know when your nonexistent alter ego might just be coming up. You'll never know until you keep on believing. Just keep that fire burning. Maybe someday, you might end up telling yourself that this is who I am. *Smiles*

Enough of that, I didn't browse Perez Hilton's blog without something to discover. I recently heard the song where Leighton Meester (my future wife) have been featured- her voice was a lovely as her looks. I also fell in love with David Archuleta's (my future husband...lol) Touch My Hand. It really reminded me of my fave band too which is Hale. I'd be expecting that song for him to sing on May 16 at SM MOA Concert Grounds. Archuleyva will unite at last.

Anyways, I'm still surfing the internet while waiting for my mom to come home so I could go to my bestfriend Eric's new pad. God bless, take care always & try to enjoy the rest of the day. Still positive even if my score was negative... lol.

Shaping in, shipping out, Archuleyva! :D

Outdoor- A Concert for Mother Earth

May 9, 2013- Clothes Over Bros together with NatureTech Foundation & Go Green Organization proudly present a night of music experience for Mother Earth- The first ever OutdooR!

Allan Leyva for OutdooR! A Concert for Mother Earth!

Outdoor is an event where people will rock out by means of giving back to our Earth. Many natural disasters are happening nowadays all because of what we've been giving to our world- drought, storms, typhoons, floods are raging thru the earth & it's our duty to save & restore it for our benefit.

Platinum Prince Mr. Allan Aldrinne Leyva leads the famous singers of today who will bring you a lot of musicatastrophe & surprises for the benefit of our Earth. Other singers include the MTNB stars Daniel Radcliffe, David Archuleta, Jang Geun-Suk & Daniel Henney, with Zac Efron, Robert Pattinson, Hilary Duff, Emma Roberts, David Cook, Michael Johns, Eric De Los Santos, Jeah Jacob, Eunice Galos, Jennifer Lopez, James Morrison, Craig David, Pussycat Dolls & many, many more.
 
Outdoor is a one night concert event which will be on the fifteenth of June 2013, Saturday at Madison Square Garden. For tickets & information log on to www.outdoor2013.com, www.c/b.com, www.nature-tech.com, & www.gogreen.org.

Blogging is Corny!

I became nostalgic when I've browsed some pictures of my neighborhood friends while thinking of a post for my blog. I suddenly remembered how they imposed that I should stop blogging- crap is what they call it these days. I think it was months ago when they said that... they even laughed at me for it.

So the question hit to me- why was I blogging?

Well, let's just say that blogging was like my personal frenzy- it really feels good when I'm typing all my thoughts where the public can read it. I mean, there's nothing really wrong or jologs about it, I also blogged because I want to remember what have I been doing, saying or thinking over the past few years. It's my techi-diary, you see.

However, I really don't see anything wrong about blogging, even if I say you should do what you want to do. What's corny about typing your everyday life or sharing your thoughts or opinions about something? It's better than not being heard when you really have something to say. At least I could release my thoughts here so I could feel better.

Gimme a break! At least I wasn't Vlogging- showing my face & annoying voice from the whole world isn't a very nice thing to do. I would prefer photos & texts as a means of communicating with the community, not that I'm against the whole idea- I love people who vlogs their life especially iShatonU, Shane Dawson, HappySlip, David Archuleta (Duh?!), Nigahiga, Gabe Bondoc & Fred. I'm just not brave enough to, you know, do that thing where I have to stick out my face on the youtube screen *hehe.

So to my neighborhood friends who think blogging is corny, I only have one thing to say- at least I don't use the internet for bad stuff! You know who you are! Bwahahaha... God bless, take care & have a nice weekend everybody!
 

Shaping in & shipping out, Allan :)

Friends. School. Experiences.

Sometimes I wonder why some friends never ask me why I left the life I had in my former school. It kinda results to a conclusion that maybe they are not really the people who give you a damn, that every moments that you've shared was a hoax, that our friendship was a thing of the past.

I don't really believe if their excuse was that they don't know that I left the school premises, because obviously, the school hallways have a big set of ears- news spread quickly than you'd ever imagined. I also thought that maybe it's not really goodbye.

Well... for me, it isn't goodbye. It never was. In addition to not asking me how I've been doing, the same thing goes to me. I mean, I don't treat my exit from GCIC as a means of goodbye, it's just that I had to move on for my education's sake (You're paying a large sum of money to learn nothing), & I really do suck at goodbyes- I'm not really the type of person who tells about his life nor tries to explain what he's been up to lately.

As my bestfriend told me "Finishing college in a different school is the most important for your education. Friends are just bonus." I did this because I needed & wanted to. It wasn't really the end between me & the friends that I have met from GCIC, it's not really about how I quit GCIC. It's about finishing college together with the friends I've met since the beginning I stepped into college. A different school doesn't change the fact that I have to continue my life with the new & old friends that I have.

At least I got this new environment that I seriously needed to take my pace to my goal again. I doubt that the current is pretty strong but as long as I remember how to swim, I would actually obtain my goal.

I was laughing awhile ago when I'm browsing the early posts that I've blogged when I was in my emotional phase. I know that college life is just the beginning from a life you'll eventually enter but my blog says it's the end for me. I remember how I felt depression over & over again & abled to withstand it. I remember how much happiness I've earned when I fell in love. I remember how much pretending I had to do so I could blogged about my perfect life. I now think about how I've matured over the last two years.

The younger me actually said the words "I want to die" & "my life is not valuable". I guess it's the insomnia talking. The younger me actually felt pain from everything. I guess it's the hormones talking. The younger me actually fell in love. I guess it's the heart talking. Now I guess I'm pretty strong enough now to be my own wall, obtaining my goal while still enduring the pain I'm receiving.

Whether I'm in different locations, different school or in a different life. My goals are the same, my heart is still the heart of a champion, my passion is still burning, & the commitment is still blooming. At first I've given a damn about everyone, now I'm thinking about myself too. God bless & take care. :)
 

Shaping in & shipping out, Allan

135th Song- It Starts Tonight

For those men who want to propose & end their bachelor days. ;)

It Starts Tonight

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Can you hear the songs that I have played?

Memories of good old days

Walking in our way

Try to stand & dance in front of you

Showing what we’ve hidden

The love I’ve given you

In a quiet night

We heard some noises

Laughed about it

Kiss you, bid goodnight

In a stormy weather

You’ve seen a place

For me to stay

Than standing in the rain

(Chorus)

I’m starting a life

With all your presence

I’ve seen the bad

Been so sad

I ain’t getting back at that

Give you my heart

Feel all the blessings

God had given me

Starting from you here

It starts tonight

Would you understand all my desires?

Constant prayers every night

Wishing you’re alright

You’re the one, I’m sure enough it’s real

Silent love I’m building

Shouting in the mist

I’ve encountered problems

But you have saved

Me from a place

That’s giving me a name

  

All the while I’ve been so blind

You’re next to me

But I cannot see

My life is all right here

(Repeat Chorus)

If there will come a time I have to die

It’s okay I’d realized my life is worth awhile

For I am giving everything to you

Kiss me please

I’m begging you

Now I am so anew

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

It starts tonight