Got Nothing...

The title says it all... no new happenings going around my not so exciting life. I love the movie Awake, though. You got to see it, it's like a Derailed-type of movie.... Okay, still got nothing. I passed all my subjects! That's good news, right?... Yeah! I still got nothing. lol. :D

67 Compositions

If there would be any Pinoy Idol Songwriter like that of American Idol Songwriter, I would really join even if I have to post only one of my compositions. I already picked the best! Its title is Believe by yours truly, together with Thrive & Strive. It was a very good song I guess, after all, I got so bored as heck staying in my home. Anyways, this is the lyrics of Believe, for those who are interested. :)

Believe

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

When it’s time for me to grow you had to know

That I’m making myself wiser without you letting go

& if I had to stay

I see the path on my way

When it’s time for me to rise above them all

I will fly to the Heavens & shout that I am born

They know that I can fall

But I will stand alone

(Chorus)

There will be amends before I could be strong

If I have to learn what’s right, I have to be wrong

& this moment now will wait for me

Cause I have chosen life to live

All I need to do right now is believe

& if anybody thinks that I am weak

I will prove that my existence is living all my dreams

I’m made from what I’ve been

To win & spread my wings

(Repeat Chorus)

Every moment counts

To seize the day, I got no doubts

Every now is happening

Got to find a way for a happy ending

To finish all these test & start to sing

I’ll open up my everything & let the music in

Been living in the shadows once

But I’m now searching for the light

I can now begin to open up my eyes

(Repeat Chorus)

& if God wants me to share my zeal

I’ll try my best to make you feel

All I need to do today is believe

Believe

There you go! Oh yeah! One more thing, I've already recorded Dreams (Fan Favorite lol) & some of the songs in imeem.com. I'll be posting the link of my imeem in my shoutout, so sorry for the voice, just listen to the lyrics alright? lol

My Friend Anj

In Araneta...

Paolo Bediones: Janina, how are you?
Janina San Miguel: I'm fine.
Paolo Bediones: Alright, so you won two of the major awards - Best in Long Gown, Best in Swimsuit. Do you feel any pressure right now?
Janina San Miguel: No, I don't feel any pressure right now.
Paolo Bediones: Confident! Alright! Please choose a name of the judge.
Paolo Bediones: We have Miss Vivienne Tan.
Vivienne Tan: Good Evening.
Janina San Miguel: Good Evening.
Vivienne Tan: The question is, what role did your family play to you as candidate to Binibining Pilinas?
Janina San Miguel: Well, my family's role for me is so important b'coz there was the wa- they're, they was the one who's... very... Hahahaha... Oh I'm so sorry, Ahhmm... My pamily... My family... Oh my god... I'm...
(Paolo Bediones: Pwede ka magtagalog,ok lang) Ok, I'm so sorry... I... I told you that I'm so confident... Eto, Ahhmm, Wait... Hahahaha, Ahmmm, Sorry guys because this was really my first pageant ever b'coz I'm only 17 years old and ahahaha I, I did not expect that I came from, I came from one of the 'taf' 10. Hmmm, so... but I said dot my family is the most important persons in my life. Thank you.

Janina San Miguel: (!#$%&*@@!#&*)

Makakahinga na sana si Janina sa kanyang pagtalikod nang...

Mysterious voice from the audience: & you think you can get off that easily, huh? hahaha

Janina San Miguel: Excuse me? (Naka-smile pa)

*Hinanap-hanap niya kung sino iyon. Nakita na lang niya ang isang babaeng mapayat na hawak-hawak ang microphone ni Dennis Trillo na isa sa mga judges. Kiss lang pala katapat ni Dennis para makuha ng babae ang mic niya.

Woman: Good evening everyone, my name is Angelie, but you can call me Anj. Janina, how are you?

Janina San Miguel: I'm 'pyn' thank you.

Anj: Let me be honest with you, I think it's appropriate to tell you that this is most likely on behalf of everyone in this coliseum, except for you guys, I guess (Tinuro ang San Miguel 'pamily'). Where did you say your school was again?

Janina San Miguel: Ah... eto... University of the East. Bakit? I mean why?

Anj: Oh nothing, really. It's just that I think I should be thanking you right now for giving us a good laugh, & another reason to post something on youtube. (Nagtawanan ang audience) But seriously though, what were you thinking right now before you answered Miss Tan's question?

Janina San Miguel: .... Ahh... my 'pamily'... my fa...

Anj: I'm not asking you to repeat your stupid answer, I'm asking you how do you think about your performance.

Janina San Miguel: (May tumulong dugo sa ilong)

Anj: Let me be frank to you, or in your case... 'prank'. You should thank God right now because of your beautiful face; at least you make up for it considering your head is that empty. Janina, darling, we, in earth, answer questions in a right way. Plus, before we could answer something, we first think before we could say anything. That's just the way it is. Do you understand me so far?

Janina San Miguel: (Epistaxis) Yes sir... I mean ma'am.

Anj: Next time, when you're in another pageant, I suggest you audition for back up dancers. that way, only your co-dancers will be the only ones who'll laugh at you. I apologize for being a connoisseur, but how can you let this thing pass when clearly, beauty isn't everything? (Nagpalakpakan ang mga tao at sumigaw. Mala-grand walkout naman ang ginawa ni Anj)

Dennis Trillo: Anj. Ikaw ang Binibining Pilipinas!

Carlene Aguilar: Hey! (Sabay pingot sa tenga)

Janina San Miguel: (Shiyyett!) (Nahimatay).

Anj: (Bumukas ang pinto ng Araneta with matching lights pa! Sakay bigla si Anj sa isang Jaguar Limo)

Paolo Bediones: ........Baby Posh?

"Excellent!"

You know, if I'm only that well off, I would throw the biggest party as in right now! I'm so happy I got an excellent performance in our Oral Revalida awhile ago.

At first, I kinda woke up late because I can't sleep last night, & when I arrived at past 9 am, there are only three people left who were next until it was my turn. I thought this day would be one of the most unluckiest days in my life, but it turned out great!

Not only did my english proficiency never left me, I also am lucky to get an easy question. Now the only thing I need to do right now is hope that everything will turn out fine, & of course, enjoy the rest of the vacation. It's only for two weeks, so yeah! I'm really gonna spoil the moment.

Congratulations to those who also made effort in the oral exam, I know everybody had done their best. We should all be thankful that everything went well. I know we all could do it, even though the test does not end here. We still have a long, long journey to travel, & this will never be easy for us, I know. But let's just stick to this moment right now & enjoy life the way it supposed to be enjoyed. I'm ready to re-type all my compositions again, & I'll be playing O2 Jam later lol.

What?! I didn't say I don't play childish games. It's fun! :)

Good day everyone

A Grand Season-Ender for N-211

GNQE

(Check)

Oral Revalida (Dang!)

Okay guys! Tomorrow might be the last episode in our section, & I'm surely gonna miss everything that happened in our bonding moments. It was a hell of an emotional roller coaster for all of us, but the fact is, it's all worth it!.... & that's coming from a connoisseur like me.

Now it's time to slap ourselves as we try to realize that we're gonna go in separate ways, & I believe it'll be hard for us to start being a fresh 3rd year student with a new environment. Even having to put aside my college drama attitude, we can't help it but to open our eyes & see that this is reality.

Probably one of the most memorable moments of my life is bonding with different people in the same section. I really am proud that I can be flexible to any people, especially to the group composed of Cathy with Anj, Marisse, Charlyn, & Karren, who already became a part of my heart. It's cheesy...bite me... but it's true.

(Blank)

Alright! Let's all be happy tomorrow as we finish this season with a Grand finale! I know there won't be any parties whatsoever, but I'm happy to just finally laugh & talk with all my classmates/friends. Oral exam will be tough, but it's easy having N-211 friends around.

Prepare for sudden suprises :)

Good night everyone. Allan

We are the Champions!!!

I'm minutes away from the Global Nursing Qualifying Exam (GNQE) & hell yeah I'm still not ready for it. The only thing I could do right now is put my faith into my fate. I have to be prepared for the things that will happen cause I know that many things will change very soon, considering I only had two weeks of summer vacation.

In the future all will be past amends, but it'll be hard for me to feign my feelings. Changes come in two kinds; the happy change & the sad change. Unfortunately, I think I have no choice but to go through the latter.

I guess I still don't know what another season will do to me, but I think being optimistic will be the very best way for me to pass this exam.

Tonight, I listened to Michael Johns' We Are The Champions & his performance really blown me away. I guess it reminded me of how I should think positive in every way.

Tick tock tick tock tick tock...

I admit that I'm scared, but let's face it, this journey in life was never been easy to travel, & reality can be such a pain in the butt. But either way, all you have is all you've got, & that can help you be stronger & wiser.

Good day everyone. =)

Memoirs in Batangas

Guess who's back from Batangas with his not-so-typical souvenirs that you wouldn't even believed they'd offered?

Woohoo! It was a heck of an adventure, & I still can't believe that I'm here blogging right now.

I can't tell you what happened there because my friends who were with me decided to keep this as our little secret, but I'm telling you, the trip was so memorable, you'll be traumatize!

Let's just say that we had fun going & staying there in Batangas, but sooner or later we have to face the consequences of how fun we had there.

But all in all, I really had a wonderful time. Thank you to my friends who were there to enjoy the moments with me; Eric, Mark, Reese, Raymond, & my two new great friends, Jhing & Jairo.

> Oh yeah! I was so happy the other day when we were going to Batangas cause I've finally seen the place where Hale performs every month for a good cause, 19 East! Hooray for me! lol

Back to reality again! I think I'm beginning to feel the pressure in our GNQE again... sucks for me!

My Compositions

I'm going to make a post for the people who are asking for my songs that they like. Yup! I'll be posting it very soon, maybe after the trip. I'm re-typing it cause I recently lost all my files because of the sudden reformat of my pc & laptop. I even lost my 100+ pages of my story, EveN (Sob).

Anyways, to those who are suggesting the song/s that they like, the comment box is always open to everybody. Here is the list of all 65 compositions of mine, made by yours truly. (In particular order)

1. A Permanent Crush

2. A Piece of Broken Heart

3. Apple Tree

4. Before Everything Else

5. Blame

6. Breathe Through Me

7. Candlelight

8. Contented

9. Control

10. Don't Quit

11. Dreams - Friends Favorite :)

12. Easy To Be With Me

13. Everything Is Better Than Before

14. Faith & Fate - Friends Favorite :)

15. Falling So Hard

16. For You - For my friend, Eric de los Santos :)

17. Free

18. From Within

19. Go Ahead - Friends Favorite :)

20. Good

21. Goodbyes Are Fleeting Declines

22. Hatred-Free

23. How Could I Begin Again - Friends Favorite :)

24. I'm Only A Man Who Dreams

25. I'm So Tired

26. In My Eyes

27. Insensitive

28. It All Comes From Behind

29. It's Never Coming Back - To my friend, Kristine Pascual :)

30. Just A Little More - To my idol, Kuya Champ Liu Pio :)

31. Keep

32. Life Or Something Like It

33. Lifetime Love

34. Little Head Of Mine - I'm saying this again, this is not a pornographic song!!! This is pertaining to my head, as in the cranium, with a brain on it. :)

35. Long Way - To my friend, Mafelisa Fernandez :)

36. Love Inside A Bottle Floating On A Puddle

37. Make It Real - Friends Favorite :)

38. Moonlight

39. My Love Is True

40. Never

41. Never Gonna Make It Today - Imagining singing with the three Season 8 American Idol bachelors; David Archuleta, Michael Johns & David Cook. That would be so cool! :)

42. Night At A Bar

43. Nothing's Gonna Be The Same

44. Our Fate

45. Please Say Goodbye - To my grandfather, Abelardo "Billy" Leyva, who passed away last, last year :_(

46. Rest For You

47. Secret Love

48. Simple Tune

49. Someday

50. Someone New

51. Stars

52. Step Ahead

53. Strong Without You - Friends Super Favorite, with interpretation by my friend, Racquel Arlante :)

54. Sweetest Way

55. Taking You Right Now

56. Tell Me Something I Don't Know

57. This Song

58. Two-Ply Lie

59. Two Worlds Apart - Friends Favorite & to my friend, Mark Dionisio & his girls :)

60. Unimportant - Friends Favorite :)

61. Unspeakable

62. Version Two

63. Waste Of Fate - To my friend, Carlo Luigi Robes :)

64. Would You Come Home

65. Yours Free

Hit me back, alright? Good day everyone! :)

When It's Time to Let Go, Let Them Know...

Whew! Back again from the wonderful rurban somewhere-in-San Juaqin Cattleya. Vacation/GNQE review was a blast! Thanks to the super Cattleya Society - Eric, Mark, Mafelisa, Racqi, & Camz. It's a platter of seriously fun bonding moments with home-made mojos on the side, made by yours truly. :)

Anyways, while having fun with my friends, things usually struck me with thoughts that can sometimes depress me. Yeah! I know what you're thinking... DRAMA again?! Well... don't think too much, cause the only thing I wanna say is that when it's time to let somebody go, then... let them go.

I don't want to say names cause, first of all, they were the ones who does not read my blog. Let's just say that they lack knowledge in the internet world. & oh yeah, I just put 'let them know' in the title instead of 'let them go' because it sounds better. :D

But seriously, I just can't tell someone that I have to let them go because they don't text me. I also don't want to end a friendship that was beyond brotherhood because of ignorance. It's not right to just say goodbye to the people you love, plus, some people tell me that even if you're hurting, it's all going to be worth it. But the thing is, I just can't feel the feeling of being special to them. The worst part is, I can prove it - they just call me when they need something. (Sigh)

Vacation is the best thing that can happen to everyone's life once in awhile, but after that, things really do change... sometimes, overnight.

Okay, I'm not saying that I should've never went on vacation, but would it hurt you to just... you know, drop a call? Insensitivity can really go a long, long way.

I apologize to those people who are reading this right now. I know you're probably rolling your eyes & yawning, but I just want to let you know that my point here is even if you give everything to maintain a friendship, sooner or later... well, let's just say that everything has it's end.

Don't listen to my title people, cause when you let them know that it's time to let them go... they will really go... & that's the worst feeling everyone would experience, especially when you already let them in into your heart. :_(

Good mor-night everybody.

To the Readers...

Sometimes I usually tell myself my blog isn't about being read, it's about being written. After all, I'm the type of person who doesn't really speak of my thoughts & opinions, so I guess blogging would be the best way to share something about life.

But there are a few people whom I wanna thank for killing some time to hear me out... or rather, see me out (?) lol.

These three ladies are my inspiration to continue my passion:

The C.B./ Girlfriend... Catherine Bautista

Ms. GCIC 2008 Eunice Galos

Mafelisa Fernandez

To the other readers, thank you thank you for having the patience to try & understand me lol. This isn't maybe a big deal for you, but it is for me, so thank you again!

 

 

 

Newsflash!

I still have many things to do... yup! Me procrastinating my priorities should be out of my system. But it's not really a burden for me right now... I don't know, I guess having that time-off really boosted me up to finish what I already started.

Awhile ago was our orientation in GNQE, a set of tests to be given to us to enter third year. This maybe the last episode in my college drama, but I'm still waiting for the Bonus Scenes.

My future is still a blur to me, but I should be making lots & lots of effort to stay at my academic level.

Okay! I should stop this now before I cry... I'm going to watch Ugly Betty Season 2 now. Goodnight to everybody! God bless. =)

What a day!

Episode 3/17/08 - Altruistically Speaking...

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Born : January 20, 1990

Died : March 10, 2008

Alive & well again I must say! As ironic as it is, it's time for me to go back to reality.

As Colbie Caillat always says "I've been asleep for awhile now. You tuck me in just like a child now..." Yup! I got sick & bedridden for the past few days. It's not because I'm tired (I'm always exhausted), it's because of me being lactose intolerant. It's kinda helpful actually, letting me rest for a few days... with burdens, but it's good. At least I got my wish of taking a break, right? Note to self, never eat exotic foods... especially baked seafoods.

But one things for sure, I'm really going to die today! Because of my sickness, I totally miss four subjects in the final exams. I really wish I could have a make-up exam if I have a medical certificate. Today's the last day of the exam, & I'm really gonna nail it!... to failure! Arghh! I really tried to study, but my body wouldn't let me, & I still dont know if I could show up later, you know, with no any information whatsoever. The worst part is, it's Biochemistry! with appetizers of Literature & English. I guess English wouldn't be much of a problem though. After all, I'm not Binibining Pilipinas 2008. Kiddin'! :P

Today, aside from worrying all that stuff, I think getting back to my friends is one of my priorities today. Let's just say there are behind the scenes footage about fights, arguments & misunderstandings. The good thing though, is that I'm always neutral; I don't take sides & I guess I don't say anything at all (Maybe that's also a problem lol).

*Slap myself* I'm going back to my world again. I'm ready... for the remaining episodes in this season. I can take it! I do... I guess. Argghh! God bless me. =)

A happy, happy birthday to one of my bestfriends, Mr. Mark Dionisio! I wish that today would be so memorable for you... not in a "there's trouble!" memorable, but "I'm overjoyed of this party" memorable. Anyways, happy birthday!

My Friend Jeah

Three guys chilling out on one of the benches of GCIC's catwalk

Vince: Dude! Sino yung nakatalikod na yun?

Pancho: Gandang chick ata, dude.

Allan: Naku! Sorry kayo, may boyfriend na kaya yan.

Vince: Sino? Yung matangkad?

Pancho: Grabe! Parang ka-team mate ko ata yan sa Basketball eh.

Allan: Si Reggie?

Pancho: Oo yata. Swerte siguro nyan. Ano name ng chick?

Allan: I would prefer to call her a society's victim of wrong protein degradation because of genetic mutation. Her name is Jeah.

Vince: Huh? Di ko gets... mukha namang maganda eh.

Allan: haha (Turn around Jeah)

(Jeah turns around)

Vince & Pancho: &%$(%($*%@)!!

(Nose bleed & vomiting)

Allan: At least the Jeah-Lee tandem never fails the audience to express their feelings... literally :)

Last Community Service :_(

It's our last Community Service Program... & you know what, it's not really a relief to me.

Suprisingly even for me, Health Care RLE became one of my favorite subjects. It's actually like a one-day vacation for all of us, just roaming around the community, taking patient's vital signs, & getting close to several families in the community. I really feel comfortable hanging out with my clients, & they treat me as one of their family members. I'm surely gonna miss these moments.

The fact that the Nursing goddess of the Community Service is with us made me so excited every Monday. I was pertaining to my favorite Clinical Instructor in the whole wide world- Miss Sharille Christine R. Calizo! She was the best teacher I will never ever forget. I was so touched by how she motivates us with her very moving words. She even cried when this last Community Service ended a while ago. I salute Ma'am Sha! I really do.

To the rest of my groupmates who stick with me through thick & thins, I wanna say thank you for being the best companions every Monday. I really appreciate all what you've done for me, especially the grades you gave me. I even remember my brothers (Ian, Ronnie, Laurence, & Reg) giving me a chocolate sundae because it was my birthday & to the girls (Jeah, Achi Aileen, Mami Yas, Sheila, Dalal & Ice) who always made me laugh because they were all afraid of dogs! lol! Thank you thank you thank you for everything you guys.

To Lola Nena, Ate Judith, Kuya Joel, Ate Marilou & my other clients with their families, I will never forget how you welcomed me to your grande abodes.

These people will surely be a part of how an Allan became... well... an Allan (Nurse Edition).

Under a lot of stress...

I don't remember the last time I was really having fun the whole day, & in times like this I really would kill someone to just take a day off.

Othen than the usual homeworks, tests, & projects, College dramas are a thing nowadays. Usually accompanied with tear-jerker or funny moments, it is quite a grand season-ender this year. The fact that many spirits have been broken do not usually mean that their souls have been strengthened. Friendships can be quite extravagant until everything falls down rock-bottom.

Dr Nucum (Biochem Teacher): Leyva, you seem to be under stress lately...

I am under a lot of stress lately & my aching back can prove it. With all those things happening in my life right now, I really wish I could just throw it all away for a piece of serenity in my ever-changing life. The sole activity I do to release these feelings is just writing it off as a song, it really helps me to go through life. It's also another way of organizing my thoughts to come up with conclusions, & maybe make a solution.

Lady Luck haven't been in my life this year, maybe she must be gambling my life right now, saying she really doesn't get my point. Who else can get me anyway? Even I don't get myself.

My family, my friends, my classmates, my teachers, even my neighbors can really push me to my limit. I guess I still have to wait a little longer for an "all's well that end's well".

I think I'm having second thoughts about standing up... cause sometimes you just had to quit. It's really a burden that you cannot stop time, (even Hiro Nakamura can't perfectly control it) & in this kind of day I want to pause everything & just breathe my way out to satisfaction. It's better that way than quitting, right?

Season II of my anatomy is about to end, & I'm just in time for mayhems. Stack me up with everything & this antagonist will surely make a way for the writers guild to have a year-long strike.

Although...

New episodes will resume on Monday. *Looks up to the ceiling*

A Nonchalant Broken's Confession

As you run beyond the never failing moments of your life,

While they breathe through your ears & vent through your eyes,

When all of the rushing drops of triumph dries out,

Here I am speaking of loneliness for a beating doubt.

As you well-off from the waves of false not trifles,

As the footsteps erase the mending on an old stone,

Just when the line breaks from these light trials,

Here I am bleeding of silence adjourn.

Through the standing from your earth of your hopeful enough world,

I was here, hardly clutching, under on their sword.

As they grow from protection & against those mockery,

Sleep, my heart, though I am weary.

Alas! Protection seems not a shield but just an armor.

Close hindrance are wider & thus my walls are weaker.

They may think of a thread sinking into the hollow in me,

But,… no, I must never play of minds that may hurt thee.

I who was a kept glass lay down through the filled emptiness.

But as long you are burning from an ash to a rend of desire,

& when this fountain of pain had already moved on,

Love, my dream, for those who you can put on.

March 6, 2008

For those who made my day so bad, I personally want to thank you. If it wasn't for you, my day would never be so damn dark & twisty!

First!!! Because of these fx drivers, I want to thank you for making me realize that I really should learn how to drive, & that walking's better than waiting for 1 hour & 30 minutes waiting for you guys. I salute you! Woohoo!

Second!!! I wouldn't want to miss giving you a really big thanks for thinking I have a fake patch in my uniform. Ma'am Guard, when & where did you get your eyes checked? Uhmmm... a logo's a logo, so please deal with it alright? Because of wasting both our time telling me to go to the Dean's Office to check it if it's an original one, I didn't get a chance to take the long test in Literature. Thank you so much. Oh yeah! Please expect evaluation forms with negative comments about your job.

Another!!! Sir, I really respect you're personal belief that you don't get mad, you get even. But please sir, do you think being late will make you angry? & even if you only get even with us, do you think I'm actually doing something wrong? Sheesh! I'm one of the students who actually listens to you when you're lecturing because I'm really interested in what you're trying to tell us, & I really put up an all nighter just to review for the long test. & now all I'm asking is just a little of your time to make a make-up test, but you really refuse to do that. & what the hell?! You just smiled at me when I told you I was waiting for more than an hour & praying that I could still catch up for the exam. If you think I'm lying sir, then I wanna say thank you for contributing to my social death. I do have high respects for you sir, but you just had to do this.

Fourth!!! Ma'am, you do know that I love Community Service, right? & I would do anything just to be early, right? Then what the hell is a make-up duty?! Back when we were going to have a Feeding Program, do you know that I came there at 6 am in the morning when we were supposed to meet at 8 in the health center? Of course! You have no idea because you weren't there 'till eight! You do know that it wasn't my fault I didn't charge my phone (because of the reason someone borrowed my charger last Thursday & still not returning it) & I went there to the health center to meet you guys, & you weren't there because you're at one of my groupmate's house to help us finish our CDX, right? Then I tell you this, I thought we were having our last duty so I went straight to school cause I thought you guys are already there for the defense in our Community Diagnosis Book. Many of my groupmates are always late, & you chose me as one who should have a make-up duty? Arrgghhh! You're my favorite Clinical instructor ma'am, & you know that we are close, but hello!!!

What a great day I had yesterday! *Bangs head on table*