A Funny Letter

Funny how life gives you something good, then takes it all away. That we have to be substitutes of someone to feel good, not knowing that we just fulfill someone's time & waste our's. How our eyes met at a constant distance & you don't care one thing about it. How strong we can be together, & weak if it gets longer. How bearable to say I love you & how hard it can be. How I keep wondering the long & hard journey to find a replica of you thinking that I might hurt you even when I'm hurting myself. How long my body stays longer, & my heart isn't. How I think it's almost over, but truly it's just the start. How low a man can be chasing over somebody who is not for him. How loving is so easy, but hard to be loved. How today feels like yesterday. How lucky I am to meet you & unlucky I am to lose you. How there's so much I wanted to tell you, but there's so little time. MUCH have been said, & now I'm losing control & you are the only one who can change me back, with you as me & me as you. I gave the best I could, but I guess it's not enough for you. I longed for someone who will make me perfect (Even though perfection is next to social suicide), but chances are I'll end up losing everybody that surrounds me. The feeling kept me awake & very strong, but the reality made me weak, so weak than I could ever imagine. I become a stray, & it wasn't my intention to disturb you, I just hope that we can somehow, in an alternate universe, be more than friends, cause when I'm seeing you with somebody, it really impairs. I've got to set my priorities, but how can I ever straighten it when I have no chance to reconcile with you? No chance I presumed. I just hope for a day when you'll come to my door, not expecting you to say you'll try to love me. Funny how this message came from a human like me, who never wants anything but you. Funny how I seemed to lose hope to have you. Funny how this ends, very funny & at the same time, very sad...