Walking on Sunshine

So I'm actually tired of apologizing for not updating my blog everytime I make a post. So I posted some of my new songs like I promised. *Smiles*

Anyways, our internet connection actually had a kidney failure or something. We subscribed to another internet company but turns out it's actually slow as a turtle (no offense to turtle-lovers out there though). If ever there will come a day where it'll get running like before, then no more internet-condemnation, I promise.

However, there are certain things in life that needed to go slow. For me, you don't have to rush life too much to a point that you're beginning to hate it. It's more enjoyable to slow down a bit, becoming a turtle & appreciating life the way it should be.

Just like learning how to play a guitar or writing some songs or even enjoying a vacation with your cute little cousins, you create more moments when you ride the waves on a mundane speed.

Appreciate life by walking. You'll never know what good things might appear... God bless & take care everyone. More songs & 'blupdates' here in LJ. :D

Setting altruism to the third bar, Aldrinne :D

204th Song- Love Stays Right Here

Love Stays Right Here

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

  

I couldn’t believe

It’s another year

Some friends leave

& others are here

Emotions were leased

Put out all my tears

Secrets are found

To answer to your doubts

(Instrumental)

Started a life

Follow what’s right

Put up a wall

Started to fall

Problems at peek

Brought down to my knees

Respect was redeemed

Changes appear

(Chorus)

But my love stays right here

Made to fight my fears

Designed to bring me near

To you, I submit

Gained some of my strength

Weakness amends

Promises break

Changed our faith

Decisions are made

Time cannot wait

Impairments of grace

Perfections erased

(Repeat Chorus)

(Instrumental)

I couldn’t believe

It’s another year

You bid your goodbye

I couldn’t ask why

Goals are achieved

Tried harder to live

I still exist

So I’m going to sing

(Repeat Chorus 3X)

My love stays right here

My love stays right here

My love stays right here

My love stays right here

My love still remains unchanged

203rd Song- Runner

Runner

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

   

Memories may fade away

So I am saving all the things that you would say

Cause this time will never stay

So let’s pretend everything remains

Like that day when I first saw your face

Or the time you said your love won’t fade

When we grow up & act like we’re adults

I know our love together has no faults

(Chorus)

Maybe we’ll stay in love forever

Or say the word goodbye

At least it’s worth a try

But honestly, I’m betting on my future

We’ll have to stick together

You’ll always be my runner

You’re always first on the line

Though you don’t know

I’m on your control

& I’m not complaining cause it’s why I’m born

Recently, I wished you’d talked to me

That our love is more than complex but it’s real

You cast away the storm & brought the sun

It’s like I’m living in the dark but now I’m found

Like the waves, you hit me in the heart

I’ll cross the seas to make this feeling won’t stop

(Repeat Chorus)

Can’t predict the future, I’m afraid

Just tell me you’ll be there & that you’ll never fade

But it’s alright when things don’t go my way

Maybe next time I’ll hit the target when I play

(Chorus)

Maybe we’ll stay in love but suffer

The rumors spread like thunder

At least I’m on your side

Lately, I wish this love would linger

Together fire & water

There’s this you’d conquer

I know you’re first on the line

(Instrumental)

(Repeat Chorus)

202nd- Made For You

Made For You

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

  

You’re the only water

To remove this fire

You’re the only sunlight

That surpassed my night

& I can’t believe that

That you have loved me back

Your résumé seems good & I’m eyeing you

  

& in this group of people, there was only me

I’m considered special & the lazy bee

  

Still I can’t believe that

You still love me for that

You’re résumé seems good & I’m eyeing you

  

(Chorus)

Cause you’re the only one who’s fitted for this job

I’m the one who needs control

& amidst these people, you have picked a person

That is mentally unstable

I’m made just for you

I’m made just for you

Made just for you

  

I’m probably the worst fighter

Who can take you down

But you’ll be my buffer

When I have to suffer

Still I can’t believe that

That you have loved me back

You’re the only one who stays when they turn their backs

(Repeat Chorus)

(Instrumental)

I’m made just for you (Repeat 2x)

I’m the wanted criminal

I’m so predictable

I’m the worst type of person

But I’m thankful that you are here

To be my eyes & ears

Can’t you see I’m made for you?

I’m made for you

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

  

I’m made for you

Made for you

201st Song- What About Me

What About Me

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I get that you’re busy

No need for you to say you’re sorry

Even I can’t control time

I know that you love me

& baby I know that you are worried

So please don’t you vent this out on me

(But)

(Chorus)

What about our plans?

What about your promise?

What about the time?

Am I expecting for nothing?

& what about out love?

What about our story?

What about our faith, our space, our dates?

Why can’t you see?

What about me?

  

I know that I’m needy

You don’t prioritize me

Sometimes I couldn’t take it anymore

I should be demanding

But you always laugh & ignore me

It’s like you do not take me seriously

(So)

(Repeat Chorus)

I know you’re sad that you’re not here

You ain’t beside me

The only reason I’m complaining

Is that you’re enjoying

While I’m not around

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Maturity 102

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I've always been asking myself whenever I think about the big & little things I've done in my life; was it always a mature thing to do or to decide?

Maturity, for me, is something I've incorporated with one's physique; if you turn thirteen & you notice some body changes in you, that's where you become mature. Of course, handling big responsibilities & appropriate conversations make you one too, but you suddenly think these are all in one area of your life only.

So how would one become wholly mature?

I've recently been praying to God that He would help me become mature. Not just in one part of my life, but to all the factors that contribute to my holistic being. It's not that I don't like being childish, I just wanted to act & look the best that I can considering I'm already becoming an adult. & becoming one requires sticking to the best decisions for your life.

An example I really want to point out is when Noynoy Aquino spent some time to himself to decide on whether to run for president in our country or not. Almost all the people who are close to him influenced him, & being president is a big, big responsibility that really requires a lot of thinking.

My point is, maturity requires time. In every big & little decisions you got to face, if you're mature you need not to rush time. Of course there will always be bad decisions (which is why I made this blog post), but if you're mature enough, accepting defeat & fixing the problem would earn you maturity points, even when people think you're childish enough to make a bad decision in the first place. Don't fret cause you're the only critic of your own life anyway.

Holding your silence, even when people might accuse you to their meanest gossips & tribulation, is something that, for me, makes you a mature person. I think it's the best way to shut those judgmental people's mouth, showing that you're not even slightly affected to the accusations you were not a part of. You know what they say, silence is golden.

We're not really perfect people, & sometimes life requires you to go through hell just to learn something. It doesn't mean that when you grow old, you become mature. There's a difference. I know I will always think about or do childish things, even when you know & believe that even just for a little you're mature in all aspects of your life. Whoever said we're not childish in nature in the first place anyways? 

Good times, Aldrinne :D

Light. Life. Lefty's.

It's already April & I haven't been in the cyber space lately. I seriously have to make up to you guys whom I have abandoned for almost three months now, specifically since the start of this year. Anyways, the fourth month has just arrived & boy do I have a lot to talk about.

To start off, I wanna apologize to everyone for being M.I.A. in the blogging business. It's just that we're still having problems with the connection thingy & my family are starting to plan on changing the internet- whatever works, I guess. I've also decided to surf the net less than before & focus on my old & new activities like writing & playing the guitar (which is challenging, by the way). It's pretty awesome when you know you had a productive day before you sleep, it sucks though cause I still have my insomnia to deal with.

March was unbelievably great; it was actually those days where I get to finish my requirements for school just before graduation that made this month excellent. Even though I lost some healthy weight because of the exhausting errands I'm dealing with (like my transcript or records, my PRC cases, etc.), having to complete them & fighting those delays are worth it. Plus I know I'm going to add more weight soon lol. I also spent some time with old friends namely Weegy, Juanton, Paks Mark, & Shirl, & had a lot of crazy moments with my AU friends.

The end of March & the start of April was also something I am proud to brag about, cause I completely renewed my faith to God in my first 'Alay Lakad' from my house to Antipolo. Thanks to my old friends, we enjoyed stopping by every station until we reached the Antipolo church. Then we had dinner & a lot of midnight snacks in going back. It was extremely exhausting, but I was reminded of the sacrifices our loving Jesus Christ did just for us. & so I figured to continue the Holy Week.

I'm not a Catholic, but I don't really stick to one religion as well. I'm fond of being a born again Christian, but I like to think I am part of all the religions that only have my God to worship for. I don't discriminate other churches just because their traditions is different from what I usually experience, & I really appreciate the fact that I'm welcome in every house of God.

It was an Altruistic April for me; having to experience 'Alay Lakad', 'Siete Palabras', Black Saturday Mass (I'm not really sure about what they call it, but it was something like lighting of the fire & water...), & Salubong, it made me realize just how much I have to change myself & be more mature while growing in the presence of God. Completing the Holy Week was a rewarding experience for me.

Congratulations to my batchmates because we have graduated (by the way lol). We had our clinical graduation on the 5th of April in Manila Hotel & it was really a momentous & joyful moment for all of us. I never expected to finish my BSN this year, especially when I think about those times when I really wanted to stop because of the hindrances & bleak hope I was having back then. But now, I found myself walking with my Aunt Jane, just before my little brother had escorted my mom in the red carpet of the vicinity. We were both there, singing our graduation song, cheering & applausing on the clinical instructors & teachers who have shaped me up & encouraged me to study during my stay in Arellano, & at the same time on the medalists who really deserved to go up the stage & redeem their rightful places. I actually was late to realize that another chapter of my life was finished & I'm starting over another again.

Anyways, congratulations to all the graduates out there. You guys deserved my cyber bow, applause, cheers & hugs. There was never really an ending to life, but there will always be sweet colossal beginnings. More new songs (I promise) & new stories up ahead! God bless & take care everyone!

Starting on another journey... Aldrinne Leyva, BSN :)