Lesson on Losing

I did not see that coming. Today was totally different & unexpected, but somehow I learned from all of it.

I couldn't say it was a regular day for me, but I'll intend to deliver like it's normal anyway. I just need some time out sessions from everything right now, & it seems I'm all spaced out that past tribulation were coming back all at the same time.

I lost a friend today; she was actually one of my best friends before but the way our fate flowed destroyed all of everything we have created. I've also lost a lot of respect; I was so surreal, ambivalent & nonchalant about my world that it broke down again. I know I haven't been creating my own problems, but it seems like all those things I have done in the past were all getting back at me now.

My life hasn't been normal until I moved to a newer & safe atmosphere. Though I've been living a not-so-quiet life (or a life with a whole new views), I've still been vindicated with the consequences I did not really escape from, but I just set aside. Now, the time has come for me to harvest all that needed to be harvested. I just don't know how to find the solution.

Maybe this time I have to inculcate all my lessons. If it's not important before, then I need to set its volume to its possible highest frequency. It's time to say goodbye to those who doesn't want to stay, & time to open up a new door again. This transition phase did affect me a lot, & now I'm going back to sleep.

Shaping in, shipping out, Aldrinne