Bipolar Disorder

I got tensed when I opened an issue of H&L (Health & Lifestyle) while waiting for my brother to unhook the DSL cord from the computer so I could use it in my laptop. The title says 'Suicide risk greater in people with bipolar disorder' by Rodney DP Dalisay, MD, FPPA. I was a little alarmed from the title, maybe because I had had suicidal thoughts before when I was incoherent & so depressed- I actually stated having it here in my blog.

Bipolar disorder was previously called manic-depressive disorder because the condition is characterized by high (manic) & low (depressed) episodes. However, it is not a single disorder. It is defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated mood referred to as mania. The patient may also experience bouts of depression.

I was a little worried when I came across that paragraph. It occurred to me that maybe I am having this disorder. I know I may seem happy (because I am), but some years ago I kinda experienced depression in the lowest days of my life. I wasn't very proud of it but I know I became emotional when I was in high school... I just didn't show it that often.

Maybe I have the disorder... maybe I don't. Bipolar has no single cause. Many factors act together to produce the illness, such as genetics, environmental factors, as well as psychological & social factors. In my case, I know that I had lived a good high school & college life, but of course, there are certain circumstances when everything just got so wrong- I don't know, but maybe I was always looking for the bad things that happened to me rather than the good things. Although now, my life is in flux with happiness, but I was hoping that this disorder will not give me enough reasons to think there was something wrong with me.

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Signing off, Hey! A!