202nd- Made For You

Made For You

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

  

You’re the only water

To remove this fire

You’re the only sunlight

That surpassed my night

& I can’t believe that

That you have loved me back

Your résumé seems good & I’m eyeing you

  

& in this group of people, there was only me

I’m considered special & the lazy bee

  

Still I can’t believe that

You still love me for that

You’re résumé seems good & I’m eyeing you

  

(Chorus)

Cause you’re the only one who’s fitted for this job

I’m the one who needs control

& amidst these people, you have picked a person

That is mentally unstable

I’m made just for you

I’m made just for you

Made just for you

  

I’m probably the worst fighter

Who can take you down

But you’ll be my buffer

When I have to suffer

Still I can’t believe that

That you have loved me back

You’re the only one who stays when they turn their backs

(Repeat Chorus)

(Instrumental)

I’m made just for you (Repeat 2x)

I’m the wanted criminal

I’m so predictable

I’m the worst type of person

But I’m thankful that you are here

To be my eyes & ears

Can’t you see I’m made for you?

I’m made for you

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

  

I’m made for you

Made for you

201st Song- What About Me

What About Me

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I get that you’re busy

No need for you to say you’re sorry

Even I can’t control time

I know that you love me

& baby I know that you are worried

So please don’t you vent this out on me

(But)

(Chorus)

What about our plans?

What about your promise?

What about the time?

Am I expecting for nothing?

& what about out love?

What about our story?

What about our faith, our space, our dates?

Why can’t you see?

What about me?

  

I know that I’m needy

You don’t prioritize me

Sometimes I couldn’t take it anymore

I should be demanding

But you always laugh & ignore me

It’s like you do not take me seriously

(So)

(Repeat Chorus)

I know you’re sad that you’re not here

You ain’t beside me

The only reason I’m complaining

Is that you’re enjoying

While I’m not around

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Maturity 102

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I've always been asking myself whenever I think about the big & little things I've done in my life; was it always a mature thing to do or to decide?

Maturity, for me, is something I've incorporated with one's physique; if you turn thirteen & you notice some body changes in you, that's where you become mature. Of course, handling big responsibilities & appropriate conversations make you one too, but you suddenly think these are all in one area of your life only.

So how would one become wholly mature?

I've recently been praying to God that He would help me become mature. Not just in one part of my life, but to all the factors that contribute to my holistic being. It's not that I don't like being childish, I just wanted to act & look the best that I can considering I'm already becoming an adult. & becoming one requires sticking to the best decisions for your life.

An example I really want to point out is when Noynoy Aquino spent some time to himself to decide on whether to run for president in our country or not. Almost all the people who are close to him influenced him, & being president is a big, big responsibility that really requires a lot of thinking.

My point is, maturity requires time. In every big & little decisions you got to face, if you're mature you need not to rush time. Of course there will always be bad decisions (which is why I made this blog post), but if you're mature enough, accepting defeat & fixing the problem would earn you maturity points, even when people think you're childish enough to make a bad decision in the first place. Don't fret cause you're the only critic of your own life anyway.

Holding your silence, even when people might accuse you to their meanest gossips & tribulation, is something that, for me, makes you a mature person. I think it's the best way to shut those judgmental people's mouth, showing that you're not even slightly affected to the accusations you were not a part of. You know what they say, silence is golden.

We're not really perfect people, & sometimes life requires you to go through hell just to learn something. It doesn't mean that when you grow old, you become mature. There's a difference. I know I will always think about or do childish things, even when you know & believe that even just for a little you're mature in all aspects of your life. Whoever said we're not childish in nature in the first place anyways? 

Good times, Aldrinne :D

Light. Life. Lefty's.

It's already April & I haven't been in the cyber space lately. I seriously have to make up to you guys whom I have abandoned for almost three months now, specifically since the start of this year. Anyways, the fourth month has just arrived & boy do I have a lot to talk about.

To start off, I wanna apologize to everyone for being M.I.A. in the blogging business. It's just that we're still having problems with the connection thingy & my family are starting to plan on changing the internet- whatever works, I guess. I've also decided to surf the net less than before & focus on my old & new activities like writing & playing the guitar (which is challenging, by the way). It's pretty awesome when you know you had a productive day before you sleep, it sucks though cause I still have my insomnia to deal with.

March was unbelievably great; it was actually those days where I get to finish my requirements for school just before graduation that made this month excellent. Even though I lost some healthy weight because of the exhausting errands I'm dealing with (like my transcript or records, my PRC cases, etc.), having to complete them & fighting those delays are worth it. Plus I know I'm going to add more weight soon lol. I also spent some time with old friends namely Weegy, Juanton, Paks Mark, & Shirl, & had a lot of crazy moments with my AU friends.

The end of March & the start of April was also something I am proud to brag about, cause I completely renewed my faith to God in my first 'Alay Lakad' from my house to Antipolo. Thanks to my old friends, we enjoyed stopping by every station until we reached the Antipolo church. Then we had dinner & a lot of midnight snacks in going back. It was extremely exhausting, but I was reminded of the sacrifices our loving Jesus Christ did just for us. & so I figured to continue the Holy Week.

I'm not a Catholic, but I don't really stick to one religion as well. I'm fond of being a born again Christian, but I like to think I am part of all the religions that only have my God to worship for. I don't discriminate other churches just because their traditions is different from what I usually experience, & I really appreciate the fact that I'm welcome in every house of God.

It was an Altruistic April for me; having to experience 'Alay Lakad', 'Siete Palabras', Black Saturday Mass (I'm not really sure about what they call it, but it was something like lighting of the fire & water...), & Salubong, it made me realize just how much I have to change myself & be more mature while growing in the presence of God. Completing the Holy Week was a rewarding experience for me.

Congratulations to my batchmates because we have graduated (by the way lol). We had our clinical graduation on the 5th of April in Manila Hotel & it was really a momentous & joyful moment for all of us. I never expected to finish my BSN this year, especially when I think about those times when I really wanted to stop because of the hindrances & bleak hope I was having back then. But now, I found myself walking with my Aunt Jane, just before my little brother had escorted my mom in the red carpet of the vicinity. We were both there, singing our graduation song, cheering & applausing on the clinical instructors & teachers who have shaped me up & encouraged me to study during my stay in Arellano, & at the same time on the medalists who really deserved to go up the stage & redeem their rightful places. I actually was late to realize that another chapter of my life was finished & I'm starting over another again.

Anyways, congratulations to all the graduates out there. You guys deserved my cyber bow, applause, cheers & hugs. There was never really an ending to life, but there will always be sweet colossal beginnings. More new songs (I promise) & new stories up ahead! God bless & take care everyone!

Starting on another journey... Aldrinne Leyva, BSN :)

Maladaptive March

It's been over a month since I last posted something really mundane for you guys to read. The truth is, it's been a stressful February for me up until now, especially that I'm juggling all the school requirements for the upcoming graduation (Yes! I'm finally graduating) that will be happening next month. :)


Anyways, enough complaining. I still have a million things for me to be thankful for; I'm still intact with reality, that's for sure. & I have minimized my time with my ol' laptop ever since we broke our internet box thingy & the fixers haven't been dropping by our house to fix it- a good outcome from a bad incident.

It's a good thing I'm finished with our NCM & almost with our Audit. It's just that I have to find... or create more time for me to study for our upcoming preboards (or mock boards) on Saturday & Sunday. It's actually twenty percent of our Audit grade & it measures whether you're fit to take the July national local examinations so wish me luck on that.

The new header, or should I say, skyscraper for the month of March- March of the Lefty's! I'm kinda going for a cartoon effect on this year's set of skyscrapers. Just reliving my childhood creativity, that's all lol.

Anyhow, I just posted three new songs I made last November (I'm really late with the song updates, huh?) & I should get going now. Still ain't sure if I still have classes on my Asian Civilization (sheesh). It's not really a maladaptive month for me but, who ever said I wasn't maladaptive in the first place? ;)

Maladaptive love to you, Aldrinne :D

200th Song- One With Dreams

One With Dreams

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

 

(Chorus)

Everybody gets on with their feet

Try to conquer their fears

They will stick to their peers

To be one with their dreams

(Repeat 2x)

 

Baby, I couldn’t really see your point here?

You said you wanna live happily

Maybe you lack the push of life anymore

Anymore, anymore oh

 

In every goal, there’s a problem for you

Every achievement, you should always be true

Life is difficult, but then again it’s your choice

(Repeat Chorus)

 

Baby, sometimes you have to give up something

To balance all the good & the bad

Maybe, try to instigate from your past

From you past

 

In every goal, there will be obstacles

Don’t play with fire, if you ain’t sure of you

Life is difficult, but then again it’s up to you

(It’s up to you)

(Repeat Chorus)

 

If your life is on the line

Change what’s not making you fine

Now be sure if you’re inclined

Never wait for time to fly

(Instrumental)

 

Everybody gets on with their feet

Try to conquer these fears

(Repeat 3x)

Everybody gets on with their feet

Are you one with dreams?

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

 

Are you one with your dreams?

199th Song- Gibbous Moon

Gibbous Moon

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

 

Please close your eyes

I’ll sing you a lullaby

Take a picture

Of you sleeping on my shoulders

Carry your weight

& everything built in your faith

Our love has bloom

Just like a big gibbous moon

Big gibbous moon

Just like a big gibbous moon

 

After a quarter

Before it goes full

I’ll take you to my home

& we can plan our future

Mystery waits but then again I got my faith

Cause our love has bloom

Just like a big gibbous moon

 

(Chorus)

Forming the love at the wolf’s marked howl

Striving enough to find the sound

Light on my way, Promise to stay

We love to fail & we fail too soon

Cause our love has bloom

Just like a big gibbous moon

 

Bad dreams may fade

But it will come back to lay

All the jokes

& everything scares me to bleed

All the love & all of the hope

But I remain strong

Just like a big gibbous moon

(Repeat Chorus)

 

Open your eyes & see the room

Love’s always there but soon it’s doomed

Trust with me heart, don’t fall apart

We love to fail & we fail to love

Cause our love has bloom

Cause our love has bloom

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

198th Song- The Need To Protect You

The Need to Protect You

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Sorry baby, I don’t know

You get so feverish & cold

I shouldn’t noticed from the start

But then I got mesmerized

By the way you talk to me

You always let me worry-free

But still I ain’t so guilty-free

Please don’t you spoil me too much

(Chorus)

You wake me up when everything’s over

I blinked for awhile then you’re better

I promised to love you forever

So please don’t you hide all your fears

The need to protect you is here

I always try to kiss your lips

Thought it’s the sole remedy

Sure enough that I believe

You complain when you feel (bad)

But never did you try to hide

The love that’s always worth a fight

Please instill the thought that I always be by your side

(Repeat Chorus)

Here

Sorry baby, I don’t know

I couldn’t even take control

But then again it’s just too much

When you hide your reasons to me

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

But then again I’m thankful

You’re loving me

Can't Surf?

Neither can I. I'm going to get fixed... I mean, going to get this fixed lol. I promise I'll be back! :)

Hitting the waves soon, Aldrinne :D

197th Song- Two

Two

Allan Aldrinne Leyva
    

Two twenty two

Fighting against the storm

Running beyond

Two million people’s virtue
  

It’s two twenty two

I’m falling for you

& I can’t believe you do too

Life isn’t kind & I can’t be fine

When I can’t be by your side

  
(Chorus)

Now I always demand

Your attention span

You make me your man

When I play my tunes

You sing all my blues

& now I feel you

As if I am two

& I feel you too

I’m falling for you

(It’s like I am two)
  

Two twenty two

Twenty two minutes past two

It’s two once again

& you can make better amends
  

It’s like every morning

You sing me my song &

I’m always distracted by you

You bring me the sun &

Erase all the warnings

& now I can feel all the warmth

(Repeat Chorus)
  

Two twenty two

I’m falling for you

You sing me my blues

Two twenty two

& I can feel you

When I play my tunes

(Instrumental)
  

Two can be once

Two hearts are beating as one

Life is a place

Where we & our love can exist

Two is the name

& our love is great

Two people now can be one

(Repeat Chorus 2x)