Change Passenger

It's officially June... everybody has this feeling of laziness when they hear the sound of their alarms, telling them it's time for school again. That's what this month is all about, & that sucks for other people.

Though we always find June as a negative month, well... let's just say school has got to start sometime this year, right? Okay, that was the lamest excuse of the century lol. All I'm saying is maybe some kids are excited to go to school not really just for education but for their friends too. But even though I'm so optimistic this month, I still want a little piece of summer vacation just for a little while. Summer classes are fun & all, but it's not really the type you'll be doing during summer, plus the campaign week that really filled my schedule during my rest days.

With June 10 only being two days away, which is the start of our school, I really don't have any idea how to treat those two days as vacation. Heck! I'm used to imagining myself working nowadays. I can't help it because working people didn't really have time for fun & play. Sleeping before I experience being awake 24/7 again is what I should be doing to have that stress-free start of classes... or, in my case, continuation of classes.

I have tons of ideas lined up for this month, including the personal letters to anybody I know & love (Yihee! David). I also planned to start a day by day personal tribute to someone like you! Yeah, I'll start doing this later this month (Hopefully). I'm still thinking about the first person whom I'll start giving my tribute with so it might take a while. I still want to thank Karren for having the ABSyndorme (Allan's Blogs Syndrome). I love the term & I love how she suffers from it... that sounds violent but... whatever lol. I'm also writing a couple of songs that I'll be posting this month. I'm doing all this while studying so... I guess I may never have so much rest next week.

Another wave of change is coming here in LJ (Lefty's Journal), & in my life especially that it's on the third season already. Better keep myself ready for it... because it's not really gonna be a good one... I'll miss you Jeah, Achi Aileen, Ice, Karen, Weegy, Cathy, & Mafe. I think there's no chance we're going to spend a whole day together because of our ridiculous schedule. But I know all of you guys have a pure heart & will never ever change the way you guys are treating me. I'm really gonna miss you. :_(

Special thanks to Icey, Karen, Cathy, Mafe & Anj...

Signing off, A Change Passenger

To David Archuleta

Dear DJ,

Aww, I really miss calling you that. Haha It's been like three months since we were together. Yeah! The concert was such a success in NYC. I didn't expect many people would come to watch me sing. It's slightly nerve-wracking but I got through it with the help of our big brother David Cook. Didn't know it was later called the concert of the year that you shouldn't miss until after the event. So I'm like woah! Anyways, I'm so 'cookified' in our funny skit with Ahiya DC. haha. Did you watched it already? Those staff in Saturday Night Live are such crazy geniuses. How's it going with Uncle & Aunt? I heard he wants me to play billiards with him.  I also miss cooking 'kiam peng' with Aunt. I hope they're doing fine. Tell them I'm going to visit there next week after the tour, & then maybe I could pick you up there & steal you away to Hollywood lol. I think next month will be our recording sessions with Hilary D. I'll be the one who will choose what duet are we gonna sing. I already submitted my 16 songs for the second album & it's gonna be a great hit. How's your brother & sisters? Are they doing good at school? I miss all of you there. I wish I could go there now but I still have three concerts to finish for the whole week. Our next destination is in O.C. I'll be pretty busy rehearsing but I promise I'll sleep more. I don't want you to worry again 'bout my health. You're becoming my nurse already haha. Just take some break in your college & music life when you have the time okay? You're gonna do great. I also promise I'd be going to your graduation next year. 'Till here. God bless & take care always DJ.

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

From David Archuleta

Dear Lan Lan,

How's it going? I heard your concert was a success last week in New York. I wish I could go but, you know, college plus album is really hard. You understand right? Anyways, are we still on for your next gigs? I'm happy to sing with you again. I also heard that we're going to make a duet song together. I'm really excited about it & so thankful that you chose me to sing a song with you. I'm gonna make you sing real good this time so don't you worry haha. I still remember the accident last three months ago. We really had so much fun escaping John, our music producer, from the studio & we threw a swimming party to your house. When John called us he was so ballistic... it was hilarious! I really miss bonding with you again, friend. After my semester I really promise to spend time with you. I also saw you on tv with our big brother David Cook. You're doing a funny skit together & it was so funny. Anyways, still have many things to do (& maybe you are too) so I'm gonna end this here.

Oh yeah! Mom, dad, my sisters, & my brother want to send their regards to you. Dad said to visit more often since you're the only one he knows who's good in billiards. Mom said she misses your cooking bid time. We really miss you so much. Allan, just take good care of yourself even more. I don't want you to collapse again due to overworking. Just sleep for once okay? I miss you & the staff there. God bless & take care.

David James Archuleta

Alone...

A simple one-word title never really sells to the public, & it's not really the lyrics of Heart's hit, but this simple common word really gets to everybody, it really does. Well, at least you have company with this feeling... & the name is sadness. :(

To tell you the truth, I'm not really opt for school in the next following weeks because dissolving isn't really what I expected. Though I'm kinda happy half of my classmates will be joining me, what about the other half & my three bestest friends right now who made their way to N-311? Got lost? No, it was the school's decision.

I still can't accept the dissolving thing...

Special thanks to Icey :_(, Karen, Cathy, Mafe, & Anj

Signing off, Archuleyva with the AASyndrome... & so depressed :_(

Allan's Anatomy 3rd Season

Just when you think everything's gonna be a better year for all of us... well, think again!

The cliche "coming soon" is not really what I am excited of. There's so many ways to celebrate another college stepping stone but I guess I have to put these one down for good.

Here's the deal... what will you feel when they put you here in this section & made a lot of good friends & then all of a sudden change the rules & place you to another? I can't even erase it on my mind the whole day. I'm the type of person who can be happy after some minutes when faced with a problem, but I was so worried the whole day I can't even eat or drink anything. I can't stand it, they're putting me in N-314 when my friends are in N-311. Damn it! I can't stand it... the worst part is I can't even do something to change all that. That damn school better be worth my money!!!

I'll really miss the three ladies whom I adore so much. I already considered them as three of my bestest friends & now they're being pulled away from me. Icey, Jeah & Achi Aileen... sob. I really hate what they're doing to us. I just can't stand it... I have to burn the school down. Arghh!

My series will really be a bummer to me, but I guess Mr. Life, not to mention Mr. Mananquil, are enjoying it for the purpose of entertainment. Gosh, that's why I hate live reality t.v. shows.

With all this happening so fast, gosh I really would exhange anything for skipping all this & fast forward my life in the music business. I really, really would. I know the movie Click's lesson, but I wish I had that remote. I'm not afraid to use it too.

I have many ideas lined up for my blog but I'm so angry & depressed because of this. What a way to end season 2 with a walk-out drama & start a new with a bad feeling. I just wish I could wind up summer just to hang out with my friends. I really would like that, I don't care if I have to repeat being so busy & tired at the same time again or bearing the pain of being administered with distilled water injections intradermally, subcutaneously or intramuscularly... I just want to spend the time with my friends especially those three girls whom I consider part of my family circle. I know it's kinda touching... but let's face it, there's no chance in hell I'm gonna turn back time & do all these things together.

With the campaign week also getting into my butt lately, it's been a really tough journey to walk on through since I feel so weak & unprepared. I guess this is the last event I'll get to spend time with them before I will, again, be a nobody in the class, trying so hard to prove I'm nobody's nobody & everybody's everybody. Just kill me now... it's okay. Did I mention that I can't stand it?

Allan's Anatomy... coming really soon... to tell all the stoners to back off!

Special thanks to Icey :_( Karen, Cathy, Mafe & Anj :__(

Signing off, (Nobody will ever call me Archuleyva again... except maybe for Ian... but it's not the same!!!)

Having the Archuleta Addiction Syndrome (AAS) again...

Sophomore Album

Dear Mr. Allan Leyva,

We've heard that it's been a very very busy career you're having right now since the start of the release of your first album "Faith & Fate". We're always keeping track of your popularity in the music industry & we keep hearing positive reviews at your songs, concerts & especially your music videos that are worth millions. Now, we're thinking of starting the recording sessions in your second album where you've sent all your compositions. It was reviewed by the board of music producers & we're proud to say that this one is going to sell again or will going to sell much more. It's really wise to name the second album "Thrive & Strive" since it's a great follow-up on the first album, & it really means nothing but a hit! We're also considering your ideas to take Mr. David James Archuleta & Ms. Hilary Duff to accompany you in your duet songs. We already informed those two people & they already agreed since it will give their career a boost because of you. In addition, we already planned to make a storyline in one of your music videos you'll be having in one of your sixteen songs. We'll keep you posted on everything, Mr. Leyva. For now, keep doing that chain of concerts you'll be having around the world. We're thinking to start the recording sessions after your Allan Addiction World Tour. It has been a great year for us because of the music you're selling in the market. Thank you so much Mr. Leyva for still having the loyalty to our company.

                                                                             EMI Management

The Hills Have Ice II

Just when everything is about to get better...

Character 1: Tell me it's over

Enemy: I'm afraid not... (Punches the man)

Just when everything is about to get safer...

Girl screams! "Please don't kill me... Please don't kill me!"

Character 2: We have to get out of here!!! C'mon!

Character 3: Their they are!!! Runnnn!!!

If you think it's over...

Character 4: It's over...

(Enemy stabbed his back)

Girl screams...

...Think again...

Dreamworks Entertainment presents a night you'll surely never forget...

Character 2: Where are we?

Character 1: In the killing part of the world...

Character 3: How can we survive?

Enemy: By running... NOW!!!

Character 3: Ahhhhhh!!!!

A night where hope never exists...

Character 1: Please spare my life... I beg you

A night where, life, too doesn't exist

While surviving is the way of life...

You've been warned again!!!

Character 3: We're safe now...

Enemy: Think again... Laughs...

THE HILLS HAVE "ICE" II... Higher Heels Than Ever!!!

Oh my gosh!!! Look at the size of that shoes!!!

Stepping... Coming soon in theathers near you...

JuNe

I started filling up my schedule yesterday & everything was set up from May 31 upto June 5. It's gonna be a pretty busy week for me today, & partying all night was merely what I needed to boost me up throughout June, thanks Mitch for throwing yours. :)

Okay, so tonight we went  to Mitch's post-birthday celebration after a whole day of making our campaign booth & oh boy, it was one heck of a party! It actually made me happy seeing my N-211 classmates there, & even though I didn't stay awake throughout the whole night upto 6 in the morning, I really, really am happy to be there celebrating. Whoo! Really, I was so tired this morning I just collapsed on my bed but still had the best rest I needed.

But just so you know, if you think everything's fine... then here's my mom getting angry at me again for no reason. She's kinda like the best mom of the year in the anger management category... I'm not really affected, though because I know she's having a pretty rough time managing us three alone, but of course, I, again, have to sacrifice myself for her to put all the anger she has. This really sucks in my part, but if that's the only way for her to feel better, then an unhealthy life is what I get.

Another month to celebrate the ups & downs of life again! It's gonna be a June, I hope, I will completely remember (although it may sound like something crazy is gonna happen)... but who cares... I'm up for something daring anyways... just look at me & my mom right now. First you're okay... then you're not. Sigh, could things get any worse?

A follow up thank you from the bottom of my heart to those who are checking out my songs in imeem. You really don't know how it means to me... so thank you for bearing the pain in your ears while you're thoroughly understanding the lyrics. For those who wants to visit, just type iAllan in the search bar in imeem & you're good to go. :)

Anyways, I still need to finish some campaigning stuff before I get tired tomorrow. God bless & take care everyone! & a happy June to everybody... dum dum dum... evil laugh. lol

Special thanks to Icey, Karen, Cathy, Mafe & Anj :D

Signing off, Archuleta Addiction Syndrome

songs...songS...sonGS...soNGS...sONGS...SONGS!

Okay, so I've already posted some songs which I'd promised last, last week ago. Speaking of promises, still need to finish things we need for the campaign tomorrow. Enjoy :)

Battlefield of Love

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

It is hard being far away from you

But I know my faith is powerful

& when my hope is crushed

By people we don’t trust

I just dream for a possible must

& I’m coming back for you

Yes I’m coming back for you

To know if I’d see the face

That had made me blind from yesterday

(Chorus)

You touched my heart

From the start

& I know it’s nobody’s fault to fall in love

I’ll raise my hand

& surrender if I can

To a battlefield of finding who to love

I looked at you & fell in an instant

& I can’t get over you

& when the fears have taken me

Just to quit & not believe

I just think of a beautiful dream

 & I’m waiting here for you

Yes I’m waiting here for you

To know if you’d touched my hand

That’s attached to my heart’s amends

(Repeat Chorus)

I made a promise to myself

I’m never going anywhere

Fate reeled us in

Together we can wipe those tears

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

To love

---------------------------------

Make Me Feel Alright

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Just close your eyes so I could see your face

Don’t be so surprised when I hold your hand

By now you should have known to you I fell

You really had me wonderin’

If ever what you do is what you act

Cause everything you do is a wonderful tact

I merely get to have hysteria

When you come close, I could just forget

The world, myself, & everything else

(Chorus)

I like to turn where the story goes

When you walk me out of my door

& let me see what’s inside of me

That’s beating just for you

Never will I go right

When you step to the other side

Whenever you’ll realize

You’re making me feel alright

You could just tell me your mistakes

Your life-long dream & your long-term goals

Plus what you see in me you already know

I’ll talk to you ‘till you get bored

I wanna know how you look when you were a child

A little baby angel when you smile & laugh

I’ll always do my best in love

Put you first & pick you up

But life is bad when you are here to run

(Repeat Chorus)

One, two days I’ve been thinkin’

If ever it is hard to believe in

Love, oh sweet love

Three, four months I’ve been hopin’

If you could maybe go in

My heart, I know

It’s so easy to fall in love with you

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

---------------------------------

Raindrops Always Make Me Cry

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

Close the windows & never let me go

If I stumble, I don’t wanna fall alone

I’m going to my room & let this silence hold

A piece of me is crumbling & I just can’t control

Turn off the lights cause I’ll be spending through the night

& if it’s over then I’m saving you tonight

We suddenly complain if everything is really right

I never want the thunder

It doesn’t really matter

(Chorus)

What can I do?

Raindrops always make me cry

What can I say?

It’s just over tonight

& why can’t I close my eyes when time has come,

To save my tears ‘till another storm appear

I never really knew the answers to your questions

I just walk away & pretend that I would wash away

Promises are ocean deep & I just can’t do it by myself

I needed rain no more, crying is just a bore but

(Repeat Chorus)

What should I say?

I’m so weak to give my way

What should I make?

I just can’t put out the rain

& why can’t I open my eyes when tears fall down

& let me drown

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Until another storm appear

---------------------------------

I’m My Own Life

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

It must’ve been nice when you’re someone else

It must’ve been good if you’re never too late

& when my tears are falling down everyone ignore me

I’ve been around problems that have taken my faith

Never been affected cause I’m ready to fail

& then there was my heart which never beat inside my skin

(Chorus)

So I’m sticking to the ones who really cared when times are tough

& I’ll try not to commit when people are in need

Cause they’re just there but they don’t care

When you need someone to pick you up

Shame on me for falling into deep with all your lies

I’m my own life

Damn all those people whom I let in my life

They told me all the lies & then they leave me tonight

& if I’m just anybody else, I’m standing up before you

You could never be afraid cause you’re being you

A poser & disgrace, can I call by two’s?

I’ll never be ashamed again cause you all need to change

(Repeat Chorus)

& I’m trying to change all my perspectives & try moving on

I’ll never be a critic when the things are gone before you

Now all of my courage disappeared when I just met you

Shame on you for letting me believe with all your lies

I’m my own life

(Repeat Chorus)

---------------------------------

Go But Stay

Allan Aldrinne Leyva

I know that you are thinking I’m just a little drifter

Or maybe I’m a little crazy about the weather

But when you raised your voice

I think you should go

I love you so please don’t stay for too long

You ought to know by now my mind is a little unequal

I promised I’ll be back as soon as I clear my head out

Maybe I will change but I stick to all my questions & doubts

& when you bid goodbye

I think I should go

I love you so I won’t stay for too long

I ought to know by now that things need a little direction

(Chorus)

Go but stay

I’m being dumb

It started when I have felt so in love

Blame me not for being so confused

Don’t you say our love’s a doubt

You’re the only family I’ve got

Go but stay

You really don’t need to choose

I know I’m self-absorbed but it’s just an act to get you

You’re a bit tough for me to offend you

But when you fade away

There’s something wrong

I need you to tell me what’s going on

Please don’t say you’re leaving just because I hurt you

I’m letting you go for now but I will hold you so close

It’s just that things are going wrong & it’s not about you

I would fade away

There’s nothing wrong

I’ll leave & come back when I am strong

I’ll never say I’m leaving just because you hurt me

(Repeat Chorus)

Stop & think, we’re getting so confused

The clock is ticking we are so amused

Never leave me here alone

If you still love me I will haul

Don’t you find the rest of world is full of fakers?

(Repeat Chorus 2x)

Go but stay

I’m being dumb

It started when my tears made me drown

I love you, please let me stay

Run away but I will hold

Your beautiful hands that took my soul

Go but stay

You really don’t need to choose

(I love you)

You really don’t need to choose

(I love you)

You really don’t need

You really don’t need

To choose (I love you)

Campaign Week!

In a moment when you just finished summer school & just wanna take the rest of the day off but you can't because you're running for secretary in the student council, yeah! It does kinda suck big time, but it's all good, I guess.

It really feels awesome when you think of all the hardships you've been through, & how you have sacrificed your time from blogging & writing music so you could study or rest. I think that's the best part of working & studying hard... uhmm... not that hard but at least you're making enough effort to prove that you can really pass this one.

Though problems may arise, I'm still constant about being happy & contented. Just having to see my friends helping me in times of my need or simply being there in my lowest points of life to cheer me up, I think we've just made the right shampoo for a bad hair day, don't cha think? :D

Like David A. (I'm addicted to him so sue me), it's all gonna be new to me in the following weeks that are coming because I'm doing something that's really out of my talent, but maybe having the ability to organize & stuff like making everything perfect is helpful enough to tell myself I'm fitted to run for the position. I'm not saying I deserve this cause clearly there are more talented people that I am, but just being able to stand up & prove to myself that I know I can be those people who deserve more is the best way for me to say "I'm Allan Aldrinne Leyva & I'm running for the position of student council secretary."

I'm also scared about not being able to know who my opponent is because I can't help myself picturing that person who has a great devotion for the job too & is very well suited to have it, but I'm still laid back about the whole situation because even if I win or lose, at least I have proven something that's out of my character, & that's one of the reasons why you can be exactly anything you wanted to be in this world.

Okay, I'm not ready for campaigning because I'm too tired being motivated but I really want to see if I can do this, not only for myself but for my co-party people as well, that sounds funny... lol

This week I'll be posting a lot of songs I have written when I have the time &, not to be boastful or anything, but I already have 82 songs that have given a lot of meaning in my life. So even if I'm not doing this blogging thing, I'm still writing my life & probably yours too through my songs.

Speaking of 82 songs, how weird is this post being my 82nd one too? Wow, I don't know if it's coincidence or I just made a really good timing. It's been a blast just expressing my feelings through the things I love doing & making a mark that I know in the future will be the things I'm really telling my grandchildren. lol

Awhile ago I was thinking if it's better to skip all these things right now or fast forward life because I know you'll end up living all your dreams by having this certain kind of achievement anyway, but I know that's not possible & that's just the way it is for us to learn, so I'm happy having all you people around. God bless us always & take care everyone. Good mor-night is the most appropriate greeting, I guess. Just stay tuned for more episodes, or rather updates here in my infamous journal about an infamous blogger turned singer turned secretary *Wink*

Special thanks to Icey, Cathy, Karen, Mafe & Anj :D

Signing off, Archuleyva!